scott26
30-05-11, 10:38
hi
my names scott im 28 and have been suffering with depression and intrucive thoughts. Ive been really struggeling to deal with this and only found this site by acident. After having a little look at some of the posts it made me feel alot better about myself and made me feel not alone. At first i couldnt stop breaking down and had a couple off horrible thoughts.I thought i was just being silly at first and just need d to pick myself up. but i couldn't,, the thoughts got worse the more i tried not to think, it felt like i was falling down a black hole.I really needed to talk to someone(but how can you say some of these things) so i turned to my mum. After talking to my mum and she was worried and told me i really should go see the doctor.I didnt want to go as thought i was going to be taken away from my family. got put on prozac witch turned me upside down. i couldnt stop crying, thought my heart was going to pop out of my chest. my mind felt like it was out of control and i couldn't put the brakes on. went back to the doctors and they changed my medication to citelopram. this helped calm me down but was really struggeling with some horrible thoughts that i couldn't even say to anyone. the thoughts made me want to just end my life. but i didnt want to as have a beautiful wife and 2 great kids. ive had some cbt and it really helped but i still have really down days for no reason.wanted to know how other people deal with the same thing?
my names scott im 28 and have been suffering with depression and intrucive thoughts. Ive been really struggeling to deal with this and only found this site by acident. After having a little look at some of the posts it made me feel alot better about myself and made me feel not alone. At first i couldnt stop breaking down and had a couple off horrible thoughts.I thought i was just being silly at first and just need d to pick myself up. but i couldn't,, the thoughts got worse the more i tried not to think, it felt like i was falling down a black hole.I really needed to talk to someone(but how can you say some of these things) so i turned to my mum. After talking to my mum and she was worried and told me i really should go see the doctor.I didnt want to go as thought i was going to be taken away from my family. got put on prozac witch turned me upside down. i couldnt stop crying, thought my heart was going to pop out of my chest. my mind felt like it was out of control and i couldn't put the brakes on. went back to the doctors and they changed my medication to citelopram. this helped calm me down but was really struggeling with some horrible thoughts that i couldn't even say to anyone. the thoughts made me want to just end my life. but i didnt want to as have a beautiful wife and 2 great kids. ive had some cbt and it really helped but i still have really down days for no reason.wanted to know how other people deal with the same thing?