Cali54321
31-05-11, 19:31
Hi all,
Just having an off day. My skin cancers fears are a bit out of proportion this morning of course.
I'm still finding myself saying "what if" alot. Specifically...
What if because I got sunburned a few times before I was 30, I am going to get melanoma but catch it so late I won't have a chance. Or it will be somewhere where it's not caught in time...
What if because I used tanning beds, I am doomed...I'd say off and on for a few years, but I can't find any information on what is considered regular use...
What if b/c of the sun exposure and having blond hair and blue eyes, I have just given myself a death sentence...
But then sometimes, I can say what is because I learned at 28 I should be smarter about the sun, it wasn't too late and I am going to be fine..
These thoughts conflict and fight eachother...for some reason b/c I did something, I am doomed, eventhough I am sure there are many more people out there who have done the same...I can't seem to take the focus off my own fate :(
On a good note, I can function, but I do have to come here often for reassurance...
Thoughts? Words of advice?
:wacko:
Just having an off day. My skin cancers fears are a bit out of proportion this morning of course.
I'm still finding myself saying "what if" alot. Specifically...
What if because I got sunburned a few times before I was 30, I am going to get melanoma but catch it so late I won't have a chance. Or it will be somewhere where it's not caught in time...
What if because I used tanning beds, I am doomed...I'd say off and on for a few years, but I can't find any information on what is considered regular use...
What if b/c of the sun exposure and having blond hair and blue eyes, I have just given myself a death sentence...
But then sometimes, I can say what is because I learned at 28 I should be smarter about the sun, it wasn't too late and I am going to be fine..
These thoughts conflict and fight eachother...for some reason b/c I did something, I am doomed, eventhough I am sure there are many more people out there who have done the same...I can't seem to take the focus off my own fate :(
On a good note, I can function, but I do have to come here often for reassurance...
Thoughts? Words of advice?
:wacko: