On The Outside
01-06-11, 16:45
I'm not diagnosed with BDD but have spent years thinking I might have it along with my myriad of other problems. I have spoken to people in the past who said they were diagnosed though, strangely, a couple of them had no problems about putting lots of photos of themselves on the net!
For me, this is something I really have a problem with. I have hardly had any photos taken of myself since the age of 14! I can sometimes tell msyelf I'm not bad looking but most of the time I hate the way I look and especially in photos. This is probably because of my low self esteem and that I've almost never had any compliments about my appearance. (I'm shy and don't meet many people though but I didn't get compliments when I had my photo online.) I avoid mirrors as much as possible though, in the past, I have checked my appearance obsessively.
I've always associated a lot of my issues about the way I look with OCD which I've suffered from since the age of six.
As usual, I'm writing about this in a fairly rational and restrained way but I can often get into a terrible emotional state about my appearance and have often wanted to look different.
For me, this is something I really have a problem with. I have hardly had any photos taken of myself since the age of 14! I can sometimes tell msyelf I'm not bad looking but most of the time I hate the way I look and especially in photos. This is probably because of my low self esteem and that I've almost never had any compliments about my appearance. (I'm shy and don't meet many people though but I didn't get compliments when I had my photo online.) I avoid mirrors as much as possible though, in the past, I have checked my appearance obsessively.
I've always associated a lot of my issues about the way I look with OCD which I've suffered from since the age of six.
As usual, I'm writing about this in a fairly rational and restrained way but I can often get into a terrible emotional state about my appearance and have often wanted to look different.