Jack Haggard
03-06-11, 12:55
Hi there one and all, I have been a lurker on these forums for a while but have decided it may do me good to be involved with others with HA.
I went through a period of councelling for my persistent fear that I would suffer a stroke a few months ago and have become completely aware of how I react to any mysterious symptoms. Despte the good that councelling did me at the time I seem to have fallen back into bad habits over the last few days.
For a nearly couple of weeks now I have had a cold like illness (sinus pains, cough, sneezing, general aches etc) but just over a week ago I noticed what has turned out to be a petechial rash (only the small blood spots, not full blown bruises) over my arms and chest predominantly with a few isolated spots also on my legs and shoulders. I went to my GP about the cold/cough and also asked him to have a look at the spots. He gave me a course of Amoxicillin for the cold and suggested that I book a blood test, which I have next Monday, to look further at the rash. He also said that he feels that there is little to worry about and that bruising would be more a cause for concern. Since googling petechiae (very bad idea I know) I am petrefied that I have leukaemia. My stomach is uncomfortable and I have come close to vomiting, I have had diarrhea, I am aching more prominantly and I don't want to eat. Despite understanding that most of these problems have worsened since beginning to worry I can't help but panic that they fall in line with what I have read about the disorder.
I am driving myself round the bend worrying and have been getting my fiancee and my family down in the process. I just can't get the thought that I may not live to have children, or marry my wonderful fiancee, or do any of the things that I want to do out of my head.
I apologise for the long winded post and I really appreciate any responses.
Thanks.
I went through a period of councelling for my persistent fear that I would suffer a stroke a few months ago and have become completely aware of how I react to any mysterious symptoms. Despte the good that councelling did me at the time I seem to have fallen back into bad habits over the last few days.
For a nearly couple of weeks now I have had a cold like illness (sinus pains, cough, sneezing, general aches etc) but just over a week ago I noticed what has turned out to be a petechial rash (only the small blood spots, not full blown bruises) over my arms and chest predominantly with a few isolated spots also on my legs and shoulders. I went to my GP about the cold/cough and also asked him to have a look at the spots. He gave me a course of Amoxicillin for the cold and suggested that I book a blood test, which I have next Monday, to look further at the rash. He also said that he feels that there is little to worry about and that bruising would be more a cause for concern. Since googling petechiae (very bad idea I know) I am petrefied that I have leukaemia. My stomach is uncomfortable and I have come close to vomiting, I have had diarrhea, I am aching more prominantly and I don't want to eat. Despite understanding that most of these problems have worsened since beginning to worry I can't help but panic that they fall in line with what I have read about the disorder.
I am driving myself round the bend worrying and have been getting my fiancee and my family down in the process. I just can't get the thought that I may not live to have children, or marry my wonderful fiancee, or do any of the things that I want to do out of my head.
I apologise for the long winded post and I really appreciate any responses.
Thanks.