Jae
07-06-11, 22:26
Hey everyone I'm knew to the forums!
Right, OK I'm 15 years old and really worried that i might be gay. It all started when I was 14 I basically got an erection from touching a boys penis with my foot.. he didn't know i got this erection but i did. I also got a wet-dream from this which i aren't going to lie i did sort of like it.. I am constantly having thoughts 24/7 about being gay. I put my self in situations (in my head) of being with a man i don't get and erection but i do get a tingle sort of feeling above my penis near the fore-skin. I have also forced myself to watch sort of gay porn ( 2 guys kissing), which again I didn't get an erection from however got that tingle sensation again. It is like I'm battling my brain I'm saying no but my brain is telling me it's what i want.. but i don't!
I am interested in girls i find them attractive. Recently at school, I am sat next to a really nice girl who sometimes flirts with me. She was rubbing the back of my leg with her foot and i got an erection. When-ever i think about doing stuff with girls it's nice.. Like the other night, I imagined my self with this girl and me feeling her bum.. lol.. i then slipped my hand down her you.. know.. parts and thought that was really nice. But the next day, I think about it and I question it like did I really like that? and i did!! but when I think about it I don't really enjoy as much as I did last time.. It's like my brain saying you don't like that.
The other night, whilst in bed, I was testing my self again thinking about gay stuff generally... and i thought i got an erection, but I think i got that tingle again, at least i hope so.. Then my anxiety went through the roof.. I started getting palpitations, i was sweating, and just really worried..
About 4 months ago I was watching a film called Dogtooth there was a scene with some girl on girl action and i really liked it ( got an erection). It reassured me that I wasn't gay yet.. the thoughts over-whelmed me.
Just recently I was watching my mate text a friend and i saw his crotch and I'm not going to lie i found it quite nice...
But you see i really... really... don't want to be gay. I get really sad and angry. I want to be like my brother, he has a nice girl and a really good life.. When i think about being in a relationship with guy it's like no, but then like the next day I'm thinking are you sure? is this the H-OCD?? I have really gotten upset about this, i don't want to be gay!
At the end of the day i get an erection for girls, i like the feeling when Im close to a girl i want to hug girls and get close, i cant be gay can I??
Also I really want to know what's this tingling i get in my penis.
Really would like some help it is really getting to me,
Thanks
Jae.
Right, OK I'm 15 years old and really worried that i might be gay. It all started when I was 14 I basically got an erection from touching a boys penis with my foot.. he didn't know i got this erection but i did. I also got a wet-dream from this which i aren't going to lie i did sort of like it.. I am constantly having thoughts 24/7 about being gay. I put my self in situations (in my head) of being with a man i don't get and erection but i do get a tingle sort of feeling above my penis near the fore-skin. I have also forced myself to watch sort of gay porn ( 2 guys kissing), which again I didn't get an erection from however got that tingle sensation again. It is like I'm battling my brain I'm saying no but my brain is telling me it's what i want.. but i don't!
I am interested in girls i find them attractive. Recently at school, I am sat next to a really nice girl who sometimes flirts with me. She was rubbing the back of my leg with her foot and i got an erection. When-ever i think about doing stuff with girls it's nice.. Like the other night, I imagined my self with this girl and me feeling her bum.. lol.. i then slipped my hand down her you.. know.. parts and thought that was really nice. But the next day, I think about it and I question it like did I really like that? and i did!! but when I think about it I don't really enjoy as much as I did last time.. It's like my brain saying you don't like that.
The other night, whilst in bed, I was testing my self again thinking about gay stuff generally... and i thought i got an erection, but I think i got that tingle again, at least i hope so.. Then my anxiety went through the roof.. I started getting palpitations, i was sweating, and just really worried..
About 4 months ago I was watching a film called Dogtooth there was a scene with some girl on girl action and i really liked it ( got an erection). It reassured me that I wasn't gay yet.. the thoughts over-whelmed me.
Just recently I was watching my mate text a friend and i saw his crotch and I'm not going to lie i found it quite nice...
But you see i really... really... don't want to be gay. I get really sad and angry. I want to be like my brother, he has a nice girl and a really good life.. When i think about being in a relationship with guy it's like no, but then like the next day I'm thinking are you sure? is this the H-OCD?? I have really gotten upset about this, i don't want to be gay!
At the end of the day i get an erection for girls, i like the feeling when Im close to a girl i want to hug girls and get close, i cant be gay can I??
Also I really want to know what's this tingling i get in my penis.
Really would like some help it is really getting to me,
Thanks
Jae.