MinnieMouse
13-06-11, 09:54
Hi
I am 37 years old and have been viewing this site for some months and am so glad I have found people who understand the world of anxiety! I apologise if I waffle.... my anxiety all began when I got a post natal thyroid condition almost three years ago. I kept feeling faint so was worried about doing so- especially in public - as to what would happen to my daughter. I would literally look around for someone who looked decent to look after her incase I fell. I was treated for the thyroid condition and was also given citalopram which I weaned off and haven't taken for some time. In the following months I had repeated blood tests as felt like the condition was coming back but all were normal. My anxiety has recently come back with a vengeance and has morphed into Health Anxiety. My dad died five years ago - only five months after diagnosis having previously been very fit. The five year anniversary seems to have triggered something as although I grieved I don't think I did so properly as I got married 10 weeks after his death and within the next two years I had moved house, changed jobs, had a baby, lived in a building site (house renovations) and been ill. I now have almost a daily battle with numbness, tremors, irritability, feeling faint, sinus problems, (what I believe to be) silent migraines. I would love to have another child but can't even entertain the idea with this constant battle. Some days I feel so detached I feel lonely. To the outside world I appear confident and popular but inside I feel like I am dying. I don't want my daughter to pick up on my weirdness as she is getting older. My husband doesn't really 'get' the extent of how I feel and to be honest I hide quite a lot. I have genuinely belived to have had a variety of illnesses my recent fears are of MS and Parkinsons as I have been displaying physical symptoms. I am going to see a neurologist later this month as migraines I suffered from years ago have come back. I also feel like my anxiety is worse leading up to my period - wonder if any other girlies feel the same?? I have been in limbo waiting for this neuro appointment and just hope my symptoms are 'just anxiety' - a phrase I don't like at all as there is nothing just about it. In terms of treatment I see a CBT therapist, do yoga weekly and use 5HTP and Rhodiola Rosea. I am even going to an allergy specialist today as diet can affect anxiety. I am desperate to get better. I feel like I could and should be a better mum, wife, daughter, sister and friend but anxiety has consumed me!! Hope we all have a good day today! xxx:yesyes:
I am 37 years old and have been viewing this site for some months and am so glad I have found people who understand the world of anxiety! I apologise if I waffle.... my anxiety all began when I got a post natal thyroid condition almost three years ago. I kept feeling faint so was worried about doing so- especially in public - as to what would happen to my daughter. I would literally look around for someone who looked decent to look after her incase I fell. I was treated for the thyroid condition and was also given citalopram which I weaned off and haven't taken for some time. In the following months I had repeated blood tests as felt like the condition was coming back but all were normal. My anxiety has recently come back with a vengeance and has morphed into Health Anxiety. My dad died five years ago - only five months after diagnosis having previously been very fit. The five year anniversary seems to have triggered something as although I grieved I don't think I did so properly as I got married 10 weeks after his death and within the next two years I had moved house, changed jobs, had a baby, lived in a building site (house renovations) and been ill. I now have almost a daily battle with numbness, tremors, irritability, feeling faint, sinus problems, (what I believe to be) silent migraines. I would love to have another child but can't even entertain the idea with this constant battle. Some days I feel so detached I feel lonely. To the outside world I appear confident and popular but inside I feel like I am dying. I don't want my daughter to pick up on my weirdness as she is getting older. My husband doesn't really 'get' the extent of how I feel and to be honest I hide quite a lot. I have genuinely belived to have had a variety of illnesses my recent fears are of MS and Parkinsons as I have been displaying physical symptoms. I am going to see a neurologist later this month as migraines I suffered from years ago have come back. I also feel like my anxiety is worse leading up to my period - wonder if any other girlies feel the same?? I have been in limbo waiting for this neuro appointment and just hope my symptoms are 'just anxiety' - a phrase I don't like at all as there is nothing just about it. In terms of treatment I see a CBT therapist, do yoga weekly and use 5HTP and Rhodiola Rosea. I am even going to an allergy specialist today as diet can affect anxiety. I am desperate to get better. I feel like I could and should be a better mum, wife, daughter, sister and friend but anxiety has consumed me!! Hope we all have a good day today! xxx:yesyes: