BETHAN97
21-06-11, 13:02
Hey,
I'm Beth, and i'm 20 years old.
I haven't been on here for about a year now, as i was eventually much better and was even weaning myself off my propranolol (i was on 80mg a day).
But about 6 weeks ago, i found myself having a relapse, and have been signed off since. My depression was so severe i would hardly leave my bed, and found myself not wanting to talk/see anyone.
I went to my gp, and he started me on citalopram, but after two weeks i found my side effects were terrible, and i could no longer take them. He then started me on sertraline, and i have been on them for about 3 weeks. I have felt a lot better on them, depression wise, but my anxiety is still sky high. I have also read about weight gain on sertraline, and the thought of this petrifies me. Half of my anxiety/depression was from my body image. i weigh around 135lb, but the thought of gaining weight upsets me so much that i feel my depression is starting to creep back and i am finding i am having more bad days than i am good.
I have been signed off work since the 17th of may, and i go back to see my doctor next wed. i am so scared of going back to work, i feel like crying and i also feel as though i will have a panic attack when i think about it. I work at a nursery, and miss the children i look after so much, just the thought of work, and the people i work with scares me so much! I don't know what to do, or what to say to the doctor.
I am having such a down day today, and i could really use some advise.
I'm Beth, and i'm 20 years old.
I haven't been on here for about a year now, as i was eventually much better and was even weaning myself off my propranolol (i was on 80mg a day).
But about 6 weeks ago, i found myself having a relapse, and have been signed off since. My depression was so severe i would hardly leave my bed, and found myself not wanting to talk/see anyone.
I went to my gp, and he started me on citalopram, but after two weeks i found my side effects were terrible, and i could no longer take them. He then started me on sertraline, and i have been on them for about 3 weeks. I have felt a lot better on them, depression wise, but my anxiety is still sky high. I have also read about weight gain on sertraline, and the thought of this petrifies me. Half of my anxiety/depression was from my body image. i weigh around 135lb, but the thought of gaining weight upsets me so much that i feel my depression is starting to creep back and i am finding i am having more bad days than i am good.
I have been signed off work since the 17th of may, and i go back to see my doctor next wed. i am so scared of going back to work, i feel like crying and i also feel as though i will have a panic attack when i think about it. I work at a nursery, and miss the children i look after so much, just the thought of work, and the people i work with scares me so much! I don't know what to do, or what to say to the doctor.
I am having such a down day today, and i could really use some advise.