W.I.F.T.S.
25-04-06, 12:10
I think a lot of my anxiety is to do with not wanting to be shocked or surprised by bad news/bad experiences. I try and brace myself for the worst all the time, so that I am prepared for it.
Very often I will dread answering the telephone in case it's someone with bad news and I'll prepare myself for hearing that someone close to me has died when i come home at night.
In some ways it's me wanting to be a smart arse, so that I can say "yes. i've been expecting that". That was how I felt when an ex-girlfriend cheated on me.
The trouble with behaving like that though is that you can never relax and enjoy things. You're constantly braced for the worst and, inevitably, bad things will happen in the end. So, you get to say "told you so". But, even worse, you're still not totally prepared for the news!!
I used to think that my grandad would abuse me if we were left alone- he never did. When I was a kid I was convinced that I had contracted AIDS because the babysitter was a bit camp!
I must learn that 99% of the things that we worry about never happen.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
Very often I will dread answering the telephone in case it's someone with bad news and I'll prepare myself for hearing that someone close to me has died when i come home at night.
In some ways it's me wanting to be a smart arse, so that I can say "yes. i've been expecting that". That was how I felt when an ex-girlfriend cheated on me.
The trouble with behaving like that though is that you can never relax and enjoy things. You're constantly braced for the worst and, inevitably, bad things will happen in the end. So, you get to say "told you so". But, even worse, you're still not totally prepared for the news!!
I used to think that my grandad would abuse me if we were left alone- he never did. When I was a kid I was convinced that I had contracted AIDS because the babysitter was a bit camp!
I must learn that 99% of the things that we worry about never happen.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.