chrissie1
22-06-11, 22:19
I have been in a severe depersonalised state for a year now.It was so bad that I actually could not remember who I was at all-I lost my sense of self and was living my life on autopilot.The worse thing was the feeling of detachment-that part of me was far away. I had the usual stuff going on in my head -all the thoughts about the strangeness of being a person-and looking at other people and wondering how they felt within themselves etc.
I am totally unable to tolerate antidepressants and have to cope with just diazepam. Well lately my depersonalisation has started to leave me but of course now I am getting back in touch with my whole self I am having quite a shock at how far away I have been. My anxiety has increased to the point where every anxious thought I have makes me tremble-I don't seem to have any insulation between my thoughts and my feelings. I feel pretty desperate really because I know this is who I am and I can't see I will ever change. Just the thought of continuing like this turns me to jelly.
I have tried CBT and EFT (which made me worse so I had to stop).
I do have the feeling that my brain chemistry has gone out of whack but I am so sensitive to all meds I don't know how to repair my brain. I took half a drop of SJW at the weekend and it increased my anxiety so much I could barely function.I have tried other herbal things recently but I had an adverse reaction to them and I think this is why I am feeling so bad right now!
I have been like this in the past and it took me four years to overcome it. I was on all kinds of drugs then but I think in retrospect they impeded my recovery so I am not keen on going down that route again. I have read all the Claire Weekes books and I know what to do-but I just don't seem to be able to do it at present. I am functioning in the outside world but inside I am torturted. Not sure what to do next....:weep:
Any suggestions please?
I am totally unable to tolerate antidepressants and have to cope with just diazepam. Well lately my depersonalisation has started to leave me but of course now I am getting back in touch with my whole self I am having quite a shock at how far away I have been. My anxiety has increased to the point where every anxious thought I have makes me tremble-I don't seem to have any insulation between my thoughts and my feelings. I feel pretty desperate really because I know this is who I am and I can't see I will ever change. Just the thought of continuing like this turns me to jelly.
I have tried CBT and EFT (which made me worse so I had to stop).
I do have the feeling that my brain chemistry has gone out of whack but I am so sensitive to all meds I don't know how to repair my brain. I took half a drop of SJW at the weekend and it increased my anxiety so much I could barely function.I have tried other herbal things recently but I had an adverse reaction to them and I think this is why I am feeling so bad right now!
I have been like this in the past and it took me four years to overcome it. I was on all kinds of drugs then but I think in retrospect they impeded my recovery so I am not keen on going down that route again. I have read all the Claire Weekes books and I know what to do-but I just don't seem to be able to do it at present. I am functioning in the outside world but inside I am torturted. Not sure what to do next....:weep:
Any suggestions please?