scrog80
23-06-11, 10:54
I have had a brupt introduction to panic and anxiety and to say the least it is horrible and would not wish it on my worst enemy however......
LATLEY i have been acting a little strange:shrug: and i have ended up with over 200 feedback on ebay as i seam to have ocd with anything relaxing i now have a tool kit for anxiety/ relaxation and i no you will all have these or at least looked at them
FLIP FLOPS --- and i ask my self why fight or flight might have problems if i am walking round like jesus in a pair of sandles i seam to be attracted to flip flops only my grandad and jesus would like ?????....
MEDITATION clothes --- I am an average size 30 year old man but i dress when around the house like a 40 stone woman all my clothes are to big ...
CLOTHES--- i am atracted to anything baggy or should i say to big for me if i see a pair of linnen trousers in primark it is like curry to a piss head to me i am attracted to it in the wrong size always to big ??????? i now look like an american rapper crossed with a roman from 200bc with my trousers falling down :shrug:
YOUTUBE RELAXATION videos --- i have listend to every meditation / hypno tape going and do i feel any better ermmmm not realy....... mabe at the time of relaxation i do that is what relaxation is .... but will i do it all again tonight even though i no it is not realy helping in the long term?????? yes i will and i will dress in flip flops baggy clothes and have a head band on all to lay down on my bed and fall asleep :)
YOGA STOOLS---- need i say more i think yoga is good for me can i can now put my head through my legs and kiss my own ass when i am feeling down :)
SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING--- what am i serching for i dont no mabe i am searching for another book on spiritual healing things i dont understand but the book **** it another spiritual way is a funny read i might add do these books make me feel any better what do you think !
do the pople that right books on the subject have anxiety ? i can feel the healing energy from hear floating over my shakra what ever that is...
SEX-- ok so i dont like to go to the gym cos it might give me a heart attack and every time i feel a twitch this is the heart atack i have been waiting for all this time that is wrecking my life also when i get this feeling i need to stand still and wait for it to come strange ......
BUT when i have sex i lay there with my heart beating out my chest (after sex) and guess what no anxiety or heart attack only a warm feeling as i reflect on the last 10 -15 seconds of my life lol so with this in mind could sex help me with anxiety ????????
men thing about sex every 7 twise as long as sex lasts with me :) so i have 6 seconds to think about anxiety and the impending heart attack that i could have right now if i think about it enough !
no wonder i am bloody stressed out in any 7 seconds i need to think about sex and anxiety and heart attacks so wat am i going to do? i got to let one go and i dont need to tell you what one i wont be thinking about :)
CONCLUSION
anxiety/panic is horrible yes!!!!
I feel like im choking im not good enough my partner will leave me im about to die any time (lets hope not before i finish this post) and all the other horrible things that comes with it like fear of busy places fear of the un known and MY personal favorit the fear of a heart attack that i feel all day long but does it happen well i am still hear with a fuzzy head that i have all day long ... can any one who has not felt these feelings help you doubtfull Mr valium is takes the edge off it for a few hours but not any good for the long term....
One thing that has me confused is the doctor says im like a cave man (i keep telling my girlfriend this but she does not see it as i do :D)and my fight or flight system is all messed up ok fair enough but why do i feel the need to wear sandles and very very loose linnen clothes with no underware ???? if a lion did come to get me in my cave i could not run because i would look like jesus :D and why do i want to go on ebay and buy anything with the word relaxation in the discription was there ebay in those days ????
so un till i find my own answers or the flip flops that will cure my anxiety i hope this give you all a good giggle because i no you will all no what i am talking about only some one in our CLUB could understand it and as they say the real crazy people are the ones that think there normal so were all ok because i no im not normal :D
Billy
LATLEY i have been acting a little strange:shrug: and i have ended up with over 200 feedback on ebay as i seam to have ocd with anything relaxing i now have a tool kit for anxiety/ relaxation and i no you will all have these or at least looked at them
FLIP FLOPS --- and i ask my self why fight or flight might have problems if i am walking round like jesus in a pair of sandles i seam to be attracted to flip flops only my grandad and jesus would like ?????....
MEDITATION clothes --- I am an average size 30 year old man but i dress when around the house like a 40 stone woman all my clothes are to big ...
CLOTHES--- i am atracted to anything baggy or should i say to big for me if i see a pair of linnen trousers in primark it is like curry to a piss head to me i am attracted to it in the wrong size always to big ??????? i now look like an american rapper crossed with a roman from 200bc with my trousers falling down :shrug:
YOUTUBE RELAXATION videos --- i have listend to every meditation / hypno tape going and do i feel any better ermmmm not realy....... mabe at the time of relaxation i do that is what relaxation is .... but will i do it all again tonight even though i no it is not realy helping in the long term?????? yes i will and i will dress in flip flops baggy clothes and have a head band on all to lay down on my bed and fall asleep :)
YOGA STOOLS---- need i say more i think yoga is good for me can i can now put my head through my legs and kiss my own ass when i am feeling down :)
SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING--- what am i serching for i dont no mabe i am searching for another book on spiritual healing things i dont understand but the book **** it another spiritual way is a funny read i might add do these books make me feel any better what do you think !
do the pople that right books on the subject have anxiety ? i can feel the healing energy from hear floating over my shakra what ever that is...
SEX-- ok so i dont like to go to the gym cos it might give me a heart attack and every time i feel a twitch this is the heart atack i have been waiting for all this time that is wrecking my life also when i get this feeling i need to stand still and wait for it to come strange ......
BUT when i have sex i lay there with my heart beating out my chest (after sex) and guess what no anxiety or heart attack only a warm feeling as i reflect on the last 10 -15 seconds of my life lol so with this in mind could sex help me with anxiety ????????
men thing about sex every 7 twise as long as sex lasts with me :) so i have 6 seconds to think about anxiety and the impending heart attack that i could have right now if i think about it enough !
no wonder i am bloody stressed out in any 7 seconds i need to think about sex and anxiety and heart attacks so wat am i going to do? i got to let one go and i dont need to tell you what one i wont be thinking about :)
CONCLUSION
anxiety/panic is horrible yes!!!!
I feel like im choking im not good enough my partner will leave me im about to die any time (lets hope not before i finish this post) and all the other horrible things that comes with it like fear of busy places fear of the un known and MY personal favorit the fear of a heart attack that i feel all day long but does it happen well i am still hear with a fuzzy head that i have all day long ... can any one who has not felt these feelings help you doubtfull Mr valium is takes the edge off it for a few hours but not any good for the long term....
One thing that has me confused is the doctor says im like a cave man (i keep telling my girlfriend this but she does not see it as i do :D)and my fight or flight system is all messed up ok fair enough but why do i feel the need to wear sandles and very very loose linnen clothes with no underware ???? if a lion did come to get me in my cave i could not run because i would look like jesus :D and why do i want to go on ebay and buy anything with the word relaxation in the discription was there ebay in those days ????
so un till i find my own answers or the flip flops that will cure my anxiety i hope this give you all a good giggle because i no you will all no what i am talking about only some one in our CLUB could understand it and as they say the real crazy people are the ones that think there normal so were all ok because i no im not normal :D
Billy