annie2008
24-06-11, 17:55
Hi Everyone
Well I havent posted on here for over 2 years!! But now Im back! Ive been doing so so well, right up until two weeks ago. I went for a routine smear test and I have conviced myself of the worst! :weep: All previous smears have been fine and Ive not had any probs with anything 'downstairs' but I feel like the panic is starting to get a grip of me. I have googled, yep I googled smear test and of course I homed in on the negative! Like I said I have been doing so well, I still have the odd little health worry from time to time but always manage to tell myself that Im being silly and can recognise my anxiety symptoms to be just that..anxiety. I think what has triggers this is a day before I recieved my 3 yearly smear letter we had to have our dog put to sleep, I was so upset then a elderly family member went into hospital and sadly passed they were very old but still a shock and we are all devasted. Now all I can think about is my bloody smear results, Ive imagined all kinds of horrible things. Like I said I googled it and just fixated on the worst, you have all this information come up, and just keep looking until you find the bad stuff, WHY do we do that?? My sister has her smear 3 days before me & has already goot her results back which were normal so because hers was normal Ive convinced myself well if hers are normal mine wont be!! whats that all about!!??
Anyway thanks for listening :)
Well I havent posted on here for over 2 years!! But now Im back! Ive been doing so so well, right up until two weeks ago. I went for a routine smear test and I have conviced myself of the worst! :weep: All previous smears have been fine and Ive not had any probs with anything 'downstairs' but I feel like the panic is starting to get a grip of me. I have googled, yep I googled smear test and of course I homed in on the negative! Like I said I have been doing so well, I still have the odd little health worry from time to time but always manage to tell myself that Im being silly and can recognise my anxiety symptoms to be just that..anxiety. I think what has triggers this is a day before I recieved my 3 yearly smear letter we had to have our dog put to sleep, I was so upset then a elderly family member went into hospital and sadly passed they were very old but still a shock and we are all devasted. Now all I can think about is my bloody smear results, Ive imagined all kinds of horrible things. Like I said I googled it and just fixated on the worst, you have all this information come up, and just keep looking until you find the bad stuff, WHY do we do that?? My sister has her smear 3 days before me & has already goot her results back which were normal so because hers was normal Ive convinced myself well if hers are normal mine wont be!! whats that all about!!??
Anyway thanks for listening :)