flobrien
27-06-11, 15:54
Hello lovely people,
I've had a really good day, got lots of things done, swimming with my son, paid bills, sent packages, all in all a successful day, no procrastinating, things moving in the right direction!
Then BAM out of nowhere my HA kicks into overload, no reason, no symptoms, no illness, no bad news, just my own silly head thinking about the inevitable "death". I really hate the not know how, when, why etc... I constantly feel on edge thinking it could happen at any time and for so many different reasons, like it would be impossible to survive into old age with all of these horrible things we can get. I feel like screaming/crying I just wish there was a magic crystal ball I could look into and promise me and my family a healthy and LONG life. But there is no such thing so I feel so helpless and out of control. I'm scared to death from hearing about completely healthy people dropping at 40 for no apparent reason and can't help thinking that this is going to happen to me?!
Help, how do I stop this crazy way of being.
Fi x
I've had a really good day, got lots of things done, swimming with my son, paid bills, sent packages, all in all a successful day, no procrastinating, things moving in the right direction!
Then BAM out of nowhere my HA kicks into overload, no reason, no symptoms, no illness, no bad news, just my own silly head thinking about the inevitable "death". I really hate the not know how, when, why etc... I constantly feel on edge thinking it could happen at any time and for so many different reasons, like it would be impossible to survive into old age with all of these horrible things we can get. I feel like screaming/crying I just wish there was a magic crystal ball I could look into and promise me and my family a healthy and LONG life. But there is no such thing so I feel so helpless and out of control. I'm scared to death from hearing about completely healthy people dropping at 40 for no apparent reason and can't help thinking that this is going to happen to me?!
Help, how do I stop this crazy way of being.
Fi x