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30-06-11, 01:04
At age 56... some would say,oh thats not old...huh! I tell you what....I worked hard all my life and did hard physical things being in shape all my life. I have exercised my brains out for the last 40 years of I know....
Ok we kept ourselves in shape to live longer and feel better.Guess what?Not so.Surprise surprise ....famil had arthritis and among other things and older age isnt looking that great. More pain more anquish....so sad. Everyday I get up work in the yard,take a walk and try to be active most days. I also read alot and research and keep busy. For the last few days my neck has really been bothering me and today I went out to do myusual yard work and my neck was hurting so I just kept on going.
I did my yard work then unpacked some thingswe had ordered and then took a walk. My hip started hurting so bad I thought it was going to break and the calves of my legs hurt so bad all I could do is come in sit down and cried.
Its not fair,someone that woked so hard and kept in great shape to be in so much pain,not to mention the e,otional distress from knowing Ill never be able to do much that I did before at least with no pain.
I get weird buzzing sensations all over my body everyday and my arms and legs get so tired and hurt...Im not sure why I ever wanted or worried about getting older. Also hearing about friends that are dying from this or that and people you have always known dropping like flies..
If I would have known what I know now I might not have worried about getting older. Its just sooooo very sad... to sit and feel the way I do and no matter what I do doesnt make a difference to the way I feel and all of this to boot anxiety makes me feel worse worrying about the future. If its this bad now ,will I be able to handle it IF I get older.. im seriously depressed and worried here. I just had to let loose my feelings here in hopes it might make me feel a little better. Thanks for reading
Ok we kept ourselves in shape to live longer and feel better.Guess what?Not so.Surprise surprise ....famil had arthritis and among other things and older age isnt looking that great. More pain more anquish....so sad. Everyday I get up work in the yard,take a walk and try to be active most days. I also read alot and research and keep busy. For the last few days my neck has really been bothering me and today I went out to do myusual yard work and my neck was hurting so I just kept on going.
I did my yard work then unpacked some thingswe had ordered and then took a walk. My hip started hurting so bad I thought it was going to break and the calves of my legs hurt so bad all I could do is come in sit down and cried.
Its not fair,someone that woked so hard and kept in great shape to be in so much pain,not to mention the e,otional distress from knowing Ill never be able to do much that I did before at least with no pain.
I get weird buzzing sensations all over my body everyday and my arms and legs get so tired and hurt...Im not sure why I ever wanted or worried about getting older. Also hearing about friends that are dying from this or that and people you have always known dropping like flies..
If I would have known what I know now I might not have worried about getting older. Its just sooooo very sad... to sit and feel the way I do and no matter what I do doesnt make a difference to the way I feel and all of this to boot anxiety makes me feel worse worrying about the future. If its this bad now ,will I be able to handle it IF I get older.. im seriously depressed and worried here. I just had to let loose my feelings here in hopes it might make me feel a little better. Thanks for reading