cromford
08-07-11, 12:42
Hi. I am 50 years old (just). I am on my second marriage (just). Started suffering when I was about 20. It took many years of therapy and pills to get it right. About 15 years ago my life started to turn round and I began to have less negative thoughts. I faced a lot of my fears and overcame many of them. I went from a total recluse to someone to lead childrens groups, managed a building company, acted etc. There were a few things that I couldn't bring myself to do. That was using public transport and travelling abroad. I did have some anxiety but this was only occassionally instead of constantly.
The only trouble is it has all come back. Last Wednesday night I woke up in a panic and instead of keeping control I lost it. I phoned NHS direct who talked me back into a fairly calm state. I went back to sleep but felt really awful the next day. I phoned the doctors the next day and asked if I could increase my Seroxat and she said yes and prescribed Diazipam and Temazipan.
Cutting a long story short I have stopped taking the diazipam as I don't like the spaced out feeling. I take two Temzipan during the night. I am shaky most of the day and do not have any apetite. I have been a bit better the last two days as I have managed to keep myself fairly occupied.
I think this has all been brought about because my Son's graduation ceremony is happing next week and it is over 5 hours drive away. He has bought tickets but I only sit in aisle seats and these are allocated. I will have to meet my Ex-husband. My current husband cannot go as there are not enough tickets. He is willing to come with me and wait outside but I am still anxious. My doctor said that I am ill and should not go. I feel I am giving in to the panic. My dilemma is what to do? Have not told my son how I am feeling.
The only trouble is it has all come back. Last Wednesday night I woke up in a panic and instead of keeping control I lost it. I phoned NHS direct who talked me back into a fairly calm state. I went back to sleep but felt really awful the next day. I phoned the doctors the next day and asked if I could increase my Seroxat and she said yes and prescribed Diazipam and Temazipan.
Cutting a long story short I have stopped taking the diazipam as I don't like the spaced out feeling. I take two Temzipan during the night. I am shaky most of the day and do not have any apetite. I have been a bit better the last two days as I have managed to keep myself fairly occupied.
I think this has all been brought about because my Son's graduation ceremony is happing next week and it is over 5 hours drive away. He has bought tickets but I only sit in aisle seats and these are allocated. I will have to meet my Ex-husband. My current husband cannot go as there are not enough tickets. He is willing to come with me and wait outside but I am still anxious. My doctor said that I am ill and should not go. I feel I am giving in to the panic. My dilemma is what to do? Have not told my son how I am feeling.