FireFlyyy
14-07-11, 19:41
Hey everyone,
Its been a while since I was here, and it seems I'm still struggling with the 'same old'. My anorexia seems to be at its worst right now, to the point where my doctors are wanting to put me inpatient in a hospital I don't want to be in (my bmi is 13.1 :weep:)…so I'm trying to do everything I can to keep myself out and get well/gain some weight at home.
Though over the past two weeks I seem to have had massiveanxiety. I have anxiety anyway, but I've never had active panic attacks when eating. Last week I choked on an apple that ended up cutting my throat because I was panicking over the food, since then, whenever I do put food into my mouth (that isn't yogurt, or any kind of liquids), my throat closes up and I have panic attacks thinking I'm going to get something stuck again (this was horrible since I'm already phobic of V***iting).
Does anyone else get like this? I'm so terrified of ending up in hospital because right now I literally cannot eat.
Please help :weep:
Its been a while since I was here, and it seems I'm still struggling with the 'same old'. My anorexia seems to be at its worst right now, to the point where my doctors are wanting to put me inpatient in a hospital I don't want to be in (my bmi is 13.1 :weep:)…so I'm trying to do everything I can to keep myself out and get well/gain some weight at home.
Though over the past two weeks I seem to have had massiveanxiety. I have anxiety anyway, but I've never had active panic attacks when eating. Last week I choked on an apple that ended up cutting my throat because I was panicking over the food, since then, whenever I do put food into my mouth (that isn't yogurt, or any kind of liquids), my throat closes up and I have panic attacks thinking I'm going to get something stuck again (this was horrible since I'm already phobic of V***iting).
Does anyone else get like this? I'm so terrified of ending up in hospital because right now I literally cannot eat.
Please help :weep: