Rhys1879SAFC
16-07-11, 18:16
Its around 8 months since my anxiety became too much for me to handle and 5 months since I started suffering from depersonalization/derealization.
I just don't seem to be making any progress, or if I do have a couple of good days and think maybe I'm starting to improve, I'll then have two terrible days and just relapse completely. I thought I was making good progress last month but its just all gone downhill again.
I can't stop worrying and I just feel depressed most of the time.
Its all health anxiety though, cancer is my big worry, I constantly check myself for strange lumps or if I have a sore leg I'll immediately blow everything out of proportion.
I also can't seem to stop the "what if" thoughts... I'm terrified of developing Bipolar or Schizophrenia and having to be locked away as a mental patient for the rest of my life, I just can't seem to beat it, I think if the dp/dr went away a little bit I would start to make a little progress, it just seems to be one thing after another. :weep:
I just don't seem to be making any progress, or if I do have a couple of good days and think maybe I'm starting to improve, I'll then have two terrible days and just relapse completely. I thought I was making good progress last month but its just all gone downhill again.
I can't stop worrying and I just feel depressed most of the time.
Its all health anxiety though, cancer is my big worry, I constantly check myself for strange lumps or if I have a sore leg I'll immediately blow everything out of proportion.
I also can't seem to stop the "what if" thoughts... I'm terrified of developing Bipolar or Schizophrenia and having to be locked away as a mental patient for the rest of my life, I just can't seem to beat it, I think if the dp/dr went away a little bit I would start to make a little progress, it just seems to be one thing after another. :weep: