Jefferiah
16-07-11, 19:01
Hey guys,
Well, I have been suffering depression for a number of years, and over the past year, my anxiety has really started to become more evident, with panic attacks, and as of the past 6 months or so, they started to become very regular, so I have been put on Citalopram to help this, as well as CBT.
I am taking 10mg per day at the moment, and assume my dose will be increased after the first 28 days.
Anyway, I am currently on Day 19 of taking the Citalopram, and I really am having a bad time :(
I thought I seemed to be getting away lightly in terms of side effects, as I wasn't experiencing the nausia and things which people often do. The first few days I just found myself tired, but I did instantly notice that at night, I couldn't sleep, and found myself "wired" if you will.
As this got to about Day 4, I was starting to get tired, but as I say, couldn't sleep. My anxiety was constantly higher than normal (and it was sky high to begin with) and I noticed my appetite had totally disappeared.
Anyway, I have kept plodding on, some nights experiencing what I would refer to as limited symptom panic attacks, where I try to drift off to slip, but will wake up wired, with an odd feeling in my head which seems to radiate around my body, almost like a cold/acidic feeling all over, it's so hard to explain, which freaks me out, and I will perform breathing exercises and counting exercises to try and calm myself down.
Anyway, on Day 17, was the night that really bothered me. I hadn't had any night attacks for a good few days, but that day my head had felt quite cloudy and had that wierd sensation I explained earlier. I also went out of the house for a bit which I haven't done much of since starting my Citalopram, and then also had a conversation on the phone with a girl I haven't spoken to in ages, and my anxiety crept up high, but I held my own...but then bed time came (despite never feeling as though my body is ready to sleep, I try and go to sleep at about 1am). I wake up (if I had even been to sleep) at about 1.30am with that massive rush / sensation in my head, and my thoughts were racing terrible (which isn't common for me despite my anxiety) and I genuinely felt as though I was losing control, so I look in the mirror to see my pupils totally dilated, my palms and feet were sweating profusely, and my heart was about 110bpm - very high considering I was in a state of relaxation!
I did eventually calm myself down, but the days after that, I have felt very cloudy and somewhat detached I guess - I'm sitting here now anxious of what is to come, my head is, well, I can't seem to think at all, and I just feel horrible.
I might add, my eating unfortunately has been poor, no appetite at all, which isn't good for a 25 year old guy, and I'm losing weight quickly, (albeit muscle and not fat, damn :P).
I am worried that I am starting to feel worse than I ever have, yet this has only started to develop over the past few days, so between say Day 16 and Day 19 which is where I am now.
Could it be considered normal for this to happen? I was expecting maybe the first couple weeks to be bad, but then things to slowly but surely get better from then on, but seems I am feeling worse at this point, and I am starting to worry about my state of mind and the sensations I'm feeling.
Any kind of input at this point would be appreciated, and I will keep this log up to date with my daily progress from now on for others to follow :)
If you need any more info to paint a more clear picture of my situation etc, feel free to ask :)
David
Well, I have been suffering depression for a number of years, and over the past year, my anxiety has really started to become more evident, with panic attacks, and as of the past 6 months or so, they started to become very regular, so I have been put on Citalopram to help this, as well as CBT.
I am taking 10mg per day at the moment, and assume my dose will be increased after the first 28 days.
Anyway, I am currently on Day 19 of taking the Citalopram, and I really am having a bad time :(
I thought I seemed to be getting away lightly in terms of side effects, as I wasn't experiencing the nausia and things which people often do. The first few days I just found myself tired, but I did instantly notice that at night, I couldn't sleep, and found myself "wired" if you will.
As this got to about Day 4, I was starting to get tired, but as I say, couldn't sleep. My anxiety was constantly higher than normal (and it was sky high to begin with) and I noticed my appetite had totally disappeared.
Anyway, I have kept plodding on, some nights experiencing what I would refer to as limited symptom panic attacks, where I try to drift off to slip, but will wake up wired, with an odd feeling in my head which seems to radiate around my body, almost like a cold/acidic feeling all over, it's so hard to explain, which freaks me out, and I will perform breathing exercises and counting exercises to try and calm myself down.
Anyway, on Day 17, was the night that really bothered me. I hadn't had any night attacks for a good few days, but that day my head had felt quite cloudy and had that wierd sensation I explained earlier. I also went out of the house for a bit which I haven't done much of since starting my Citalopram, and then also had a conversation on the phone with a girl I haven't spoken to in ages, and my anxiety crept up high, but I held my own...but then bed time came (despite never feeling as though my body is ready to sleep, I try and go to sleep at about 1am). I wake up (if I had even been to sleep) at about 1.30am with that massive rush / sensation in my head, and my thoughts were racing terrible (which isn't common for me despite my anxiety) and I genuinely felt as though I was losing control, so I look in the mirror to see my pupils totally dilated, my palms and feet were sweating profusely, and my heart was about 110bpm - very high considering I was in a state of relaxation!
I did eventually calm myself down, but the days after that, I have felt very cloudy and somewhat detached I guess - I'm sitting here now anxious of what is to come, my head is, well, I can't seem to think at all, and I just feel horrible.
I might add, my eating unfortunately has been poor, no appetite at all, which isn't good for a 25 year old guy, and I'm losing weight quickly, (albeit muscle and not fat, damn :P).
I am worried that I am starting to feel worse than I ever have, yet this has only started to develop over the past few days, so between say Day 16 and Day 19 which is where I am now.
Could it be considered normal for this to happen? I was expecting maybe the first couple weeks to be bad, but then things to slowly but surely get better from then on, but seems I am feeling worse at this point, and I am starting to worry about my state of mind and the sensations I'm feeling.
Any kind of input at this point would be appreciated, and I will keep this log up to date with my daily progress from now on for others to follow :)
If you need any more info to paint a more clear picture of my situation etc, feel free to ask :)
David