lmb_nj
20-07-11, 15:17
Hi All,
just need to post something as I'm home alone right now and needed to connect. It's been a tough couple of days and I'm using this sight as an anchor.
I made the step to call a therapist just now. Had to leave a message and am now waiting for the reply.
Day 6 of citalopram and it's been rough with side effects. I just don't know if my anxiety is drivng my feelings or if the citalopram is raising my anxiety level.
Today is a bit of a baby rollercoaster. I had a good night last night for a couple hours between 8 and 10 pm and was hoping it would have stayed with me until today. But not the case as my legs are restless. And I'm a bit anxious about making decisions. This is how my anxiety resurfaced i am thinking. I believe I needed to make life changing decsions because I wasn't happy with my work situation or living away from my family, who are in another state. Nothing presented before me seemed doable - of course I would make excuses (and hopefully therapy will address this).
Now I'm thinking I need to decide if I go on short term disability or not. Because I'm not feeling that well and going back to work in this condition is not what I want to do. I told my boss I needed a few days because of this(explained my situation confidentially), thinking that's all I needed. He was understanding and said take the time you need to recover. I just need to know now if in say three days time I'm good to function at work. I know I won't know that, but that's how I am . I need to resolve things. Nothing can be "go with the flow".
Anyway thanks for listening. As I said this site has been my crutch for the last few days.
Lisa
just need to post something as I'm home alone right now and needed to connect. It's been a tough couple of days and I'm using this sight as an anchor.
I made the step to call a therapist just now. Had to leave a message and am now waiting for the reply.
Day 6 of citalopram and it's been rough with side effects. I just don't know if my anxiety is drivng my feelings or if the citalopram is raising my anxiety level.
Today is a bit of a baby rollercoaster. I had a good night last night for a couple hours between 8 and 10 pm and was hoping it would have stayed with me until today. But not the case as my legs are restless. And I'm a bit anxious about making decisions. This is how my anxiety resurfaced i am thinking. I believe I needed to make life changing decsions because I wasn't happy with my work situation or living away from my family, who are in another state. Nothing presented before me seemed doable - of course I would make excuses (and hopefully therapy will address this).
Now I'm thinking I need to decide if I go on short term disability or not. Because I'm not feeling that well and going back to work in this condition is not what I want to do. I told my boss I needed a few days because of this(explained my situation confidentially), thinking that's all I needed. He was understanding and said take the time you need to recover. I just need to know now if in say three days time I'm good to function at work. I know I won't know that, but that's how I am . I need to resolve things. Nothing can be "go with the flow".
Anyway thanks for listening. As I said this site has been my crutch for the last few days.
Lisa