kashameets
21-07-11, 16:21
I have suffered with agoraphobia and social phobia all of my life thats 36 years of not knowing what it is like to be 'normal' :wacko:
I have only ever worked for 6 months in my life and that was when i was having a manic high (as i may also have bipolar) but then lost my job when i then had a manic low.
I have not gone out the front door on my own for 7 years, anniversary of the last time is today and today i get my ESA letter telling me i will be getting a phone call in the next 2 weeks to start the process of changing from income support over to ESA, yep just what i need:yesyes::lac:
This month so far my brother was rushed in to hospital with a suspected mild heart attack, my husbands had a great deal of upset to do with his family (he also suffers depression and possibly BPD) my dog who is my baby has been ill and needs an xray on the 25th were she will be put out, the 16th was the 12 year anniversary of my mum's death, the council messed up my medical points so its unlikely that i will be able to move back to the village i grew up in and the only place i feel less anxious and can go out on my own sometimes, today is the 7 year anniversary of the last time i went out on my own and the 6 year anniversary of my other dogs death and i have a over the phone psychotherapy assessment on the 27th and NOW this!!!!! :weep:
I have read so many horror stories about ESA i just know its up going to go :doh: i have had to write to the benefits office asking them to send me a letter telling me what the number is they will be ringing me from as i cant answer the phone to people i dont know and sometimes not at all:unsure: then i guess i will be sent for a medical interview which i wont be able to go to so that will be more stress as i will have to request a home visit which they dont like doing:unsure: then best case i will be put in the work activity group where i will be told i have to go to interviews that i wont be able to attend:weep:
And all this is meant to help me get better and back to work, no seeing my psychiatrist and taking things one step at a time with no pressure will get me better and back to work not causing more stress, anxiety, worry and in fact making me a whole bloody lot worse by trying to force me to do things that make me freak and take two steps back:mad:
I wondered if anyone else has been through the ESA nightmare and how they got on?
I have only ever worked for 6 months in my life and that was when i was having a manic high (as i may also have bipolar) but then lost my job when i then had a manic low.
I have not gone out the front door on my own for 7 years, anniversary of the last time is today and today i get my ESA letter telling me i will be getting a phone call in the next 2 weeks to start the process of changing from income support over to ESA, yep just what i need:yesyes::lac:
This month so far my brother was rushed in to hospital with a suspected mild heart attack, my husbands had a great deal of upset to do with his family (he also suffers depression and possibly BPD) my dog who is my baby has been ill and needs an xray on the 25th were she will be put out, the 16th was the 12 year anniversary of my mum's death, the council messed up my medical points so its unlikely that i will be able to move back to the village i grew up in and the only place i feel less anxious and can go out on my own sometimes, today is the 7 year anniversary of the last time i went out on my own and the 6 year anniversary of my other dogs death and i have a over the phone psychotherapy assessment on the 27th and NOW this!!!!! :weep:
I have read so many horror stories about ESA i just know its up going to go :doh: i have had to write to the benefits office asking them to send me a letter telling me what the number is they will be ringing me from as i cant answer the phone to people i dont know and sometimes not at all:unsure: then i guess i will be sent for a medical interview which i wont be able to go to so that will be more stress as i will have to request a home visit which they dont like doing:unsure: then best case i will be put in the work activity group where i will be told i have to go to interviews that i wont be able to attend:weep:
And all this is meant to help me get better and back to work, no seeing my psychiatrist and taking things one step at a time with no pressure will get me better and back to work not causing more stress, anxiety, worry and in fact making me a whole bloody lot worse by trying to force me to do things that make me freak and take two steps back:mad:
I wondered if anyone else has been through the ESA nightmare and how they got on?