xJust_Sarahx
29-07-11, 19:09
Hi
I cant help but feel so envious of everyone and its really getting me down. Seeing people with there friends out the window having a laugh and all dressed up to go out, and on facebook all my old college mates and old school mates posting new pictures of fun times and things.
I wish that was me. Im so scared to even go to the shop incase i get breathless and cant catch my breathe.
Im doing nothing and im always housebound, im so scared of going out and when i do everything feels so exposed and i just panic and cant breathe. I hate that feeling, im useless i really am and im jealous of people who have the will power to do things and think positivly, i wish i could.
The doctors dont reassure me one bit, they make me feel bad like im wasting there time. I just dont know what to do. If i didnt have kids i dont know how i would get through anything.
I feel like everyday is my last day and when i wake up i feel glad to be alive and of survived.
Im debating whether to write letters to everyone that means summit to me and to my kids just incase i die soon because i feel so ill and i know somethings wrong with me. I feel so alone :(
I cant help but feel so envious of everyone and its really getting me down. Seeing people with there friends out the window having a laugh and all dressed up to go out, and on facebook all my old college mates and old school mates posting new pictures of fun times and things.
I wish that was me. Im so scared to even go to the shop incase i get breathless and cant catch my breathe.
Im doing nothing and im always housebound, im so scared of going out and when i do everything feels so exposed and i just panic and cant breathe. I hate that feeling, im useless i really am and im jealous of people who have the will power to do things and think positivly, i wish i could.
The doctors dont reassure me one bit, they make me feel bad like im wasting there time. I just dont know what to do. If i didnt have kids i dont know how i would get through anything.
I feel like everyday is my last day and when i wake up i feel glad to be alive and of survived.
Im debating whether to write letters to everyone that means summit to me and to my kids just incase i die soon because i feel so ill and i know somethings wrong with me. I feel so alone :(