HannahN
30-07-11, 06:49
Hiya, Sorry I didn't know where to put this but i need to ask as its causing my anxiety to flare up again and is already making me ill.
Okay so I'm 20 years old and Iv'e been with my partner since I was 13. We've been together for 7 years next month and its been going really really well. Problem is I found a plain cased cd under my bed and asked my boyfriend what it was and he said a music cd however I didn't trust the way he said it. He hid it at some point over the next day and I (not going to lie) looked for it. When I found it well ..easy to say there was porn on it. I wasn't bothered at the fact of what it was but the lying made me uneasy. So i wanted to know what else he was hiding and I am ashamed to say my anxiety got the best of me and I checked his old phones, facebook and emails. All had messages and pictures of other women and his phone had porn. So we had a chat and appeared to have cleared it all up. However I kept having a funny feeling and have been rather cold towards him about the messages from other girls. Anyway he went out last night and when he came back woke me up (was still dazed and had my eyes closed) and when he hadn't gotten into bed within 10 mins I looked up to see him watching a porn channel :/ which makes me very angry as even though I saw it and he saw i did he still denied it saying he was just flicking though channels. I'm so worried that our relationship is crumbling as i love him so much but he can't stop lying to me. Please help I feel so ill and hurt. Thank you x :weep:
Okay so I'm 20 years old and Iv'e been with my partner since I was 13. We've been together for 7 years next month and its been going really really well. Problem is I found a plain cased cd under my bed and asked my boyfriend what it was and he said a music cd however I didn't trust the way he said it. He hid it at some point over the next day and I (not going to lie) looked for it. When I found it well ..easy to say there was porn on it. I wasn't bothered at the fact of what it was but the lying made me uneasy. So i wanted to know what else he was hiding and I am ashamed to say my anxiety got the best of me and I checked his old phones, facebook and emails. All had messages and pictures of other women and his phone had porn. So we had a chat and appeared to have cleared it all up. However I kept having a funny feeling and have been rather cold towards him about the messages from other girls. Anyway he went out last night and when he came back woke me up (was still dazed and had my eyes closed) and when he hadn't gotten into bed within 10 mins I looked up to see him watching a porn channel :/ which makes me very angry as even though I saw it and he saw i did he still denied it saying he was just flicking though channels. I'm so worried that our relationship is crumbling as i love him so much but he can't stop lying to me. Please help I feel so ill and hurt. Thank you x :weep: