pete84
02-08-11, 15:10
Hi i'm new here. (male 26) I'm looking for some advice or help please. I really want to move on with my life, but mentally I have a few things holding me back. I've tried to beat them, although I dont actually know what i'm trying to beat.
Everytime I try I end up where I started like a vicous cricle.
Well where to start symptom wise.
Mentally I think i'm really intelligent and been told it many times. I'm excellent at maths/science anything technical and DIY. I worry that i'm not normal, but i've been told i'm the most normal-average person there is many times.
I guess thats how i try to appear, but I dont feel normal.
I think alot and ask many questions. I question my existence and try to find answers all the time and self diagnose my self. I guess i'm searching for an answer to why i'm the way I am.
Will list more symstoms now:
Violent thoughts, often when holding a knife/hammer i've thought about attacking people who are close to me. Plus wierd urges to throw things and smash them and i've also had the urge to jump infront of cars/buses etc.
Sexually innapropriate thoughts about things which i dont want to go into.
Regulary question my self with "AM I GAY?" usually around close friends,which leads to anxiety and me trying to not appear gay. Even though I know im straight.
Really anxious outside, at one point I wouldn't ever leave the house, although in the last 2 years i've overcome that part to some extent.
I still back away from new experiences, get that weird feeling in me belly. Also im depressed and have low self asteam, but sometimes my confidence is high for a while and i'm on top of the world but doesn't last long.
Sometimes I way overthink simple things, my mind goes into a weird state like its beating and I feel like my head guna pop. Not to mention I have difficulty sleeping and my sleeping pattern is late nights(4-5am) and wake up after dinner.(12.30pm+) and yes i'm unemployed.
I obsess over simple things, a small remark can be on my mind for weeks and I often look back at things i've said or done days earlier and thing "what a weirdo or idiot"...
I'd be greatful for any responces, except insults lol
Everytime I try I end up where I started like a vicous cricle.
Well where to start symptom wise.
Mentally I think i'm really intelligent and been told it many times. I'm excellent at maths/science anything technical and DIY. I worry that i'm not normal, but i've been told i'm the most normal-average person there is many times.
I guess thats how i try to appear, but I dont feel normal.
I think alot and ask many questions. I question my existence and try to find answers all the time and self diagnose my self. I guess i'm searching for an answer to why i'm the way I am.
Will list more symstoms now:
Violent thoughts, often when holding a knife/hammer i've thought about attacking people who are close to me. Plus wierd urges to throw things and smash them and i've also had the urge to jump infront of cars/buses etc.
Sexually innapropriate thoughts about things which i dont want to go into.
Regulary question my self with "AM I GAY?" usually around close friends,which leads to anxiety and me trying to not appear gay. Even though I know im straight.
Really anxious outside, at one point I wouldn't ever leave the house, although in the last 2 years i've overcome that part to some extent.
I still back away from new experiences, get that weird feeling in me belly. Also im depressed and have low self asteam, but sometimes my confidence is high for a while and i'm on top of the world but doesn't last long.
Sometimes I way overthink simple things, my mind goes into a weird state like its beating and I feel like my head guna pop. Not to mention I have difficulty sleeping and my sleeping pattern is late nights(4-5am) and wake up after dinner.(12.30pm+) and yes i'm unemployed.
I obsess over simple things, a small remark can be on my mind for weeks and I often look back at things i've said or done days earlier and thing "what a weirdo or idiot"...
I'd be greatful for any responces, except insults lol