hannah26
03-08-11, 22:24
Ok so I have been having panic attacks for years, nearly 11 of the suckers and have tried many many things to help me get over them.
One of them being religion, now I was not a religious person at all but a few years ago I took it all very seriously and went to something called an alpha class at my local church we discussed god and such for the 12 weeks I was there and would you believe it at the end I felt better, I was lighter in spirit and everyone said I look happier for it even the father so I got baptised and I felt really good about it, I still do actually although I dont practice it.
But you see since then I have had this feeling where I am worried about planning and talking about the future, like I wont say see you tomorrow becasue I am scared if I do then something will happen and I wont, sorry I sound like :wacko::wacko:, also I dont like to plan for the future I dont really like writing in my appointment diary just in case, does anyone know what I mean.
I also find it hard if I ever do anything wrong I feel like god will punish me, although like I said I do believe in god, but I believe in a nice version so why does my brain think things like this, I feel like I can never move on, sorry I am finding it hard to write down what I feel I hope someone gets it!!I am not overly religious or anything like that but I do belive in god etc but I dont know why I think like this, am I really crazy? Dont get me wrong these thought arent at the forefront of my mind 24/7 but I do get them quite a bit and I just cant seem to move past them, does that make sense?
One of them being religion, now I was not a religious person at all but a few years ago I took it all very seriously and went to something called an alpha class at my local church we discussed god and such for the 12 weeks I was there and would you believe it at the end I felt better, I was lighter in spirit and everyone said I look happier for it even the father so I got baptised and I felt really good about it, I still do actually although I dont practice it.
But you see since then I have had this feeling where I am worried about planning and talking about the future, like I wont say see you tomorrow becasue I am scared if I do then something will happen and I wont, sorry I sound like :wacko::wacko:, also I dont like to plan for the future I dont really like writing in my appointment diary just in case, does anyone know what I mean.
I also find it hard if I ever do anything wrong I feel like god will punish me, although like I said I do believe in god, but I believe in a nice version so why does my brain think things like this, I feel like I can never move on, sorry I am finding it hard to write down what I feel I hope someone gets it!!I am not overly religious or anything like that but I do belive in god etc but I dont know why I think like this, am I really crazy? Dont get me wrong these thought arent at the forefront of my mind 24/7 but I do get them quite a bit and I just cant seem to move past them, does that make sense?