To do OR not to do

[Helmet]

I feel having Paradoxes in my thoughts. I've just wanted to know if anyone else here has these.
I have feelings like:

Packing and go to a 2-3 days trip... but I wont do.
Or like to go to a dinner I've already invited... but I hate that!

and many more serious things.
HOW COULD I LOVE TO DO SOMETHING THAT I HATE DOING THAT?
I'm not sure it is bipolar in fact I dont think its bipolar at all.

Now I very like to hear from you and in this case I really really like to :)

[debs71]

Hi,

I think that this is very normal and very common with depression/anxiety.

It stems from negativity I think, and just that feeling that we want to do something but we are also pessimistic about it and also feel like we really don't want to do it at the same time.

I have this ALL the time since I have had anxiety and depression. I always have it when I do anything outside of my normal routine, like a family meeting/celebration or going out to dinner, that kind of thing. I want to go, but at the same time I don't want to, and when I do eventually go, I am glad that I did and enjoy it.

It is a frustrating thing but I think it is normal within the realms of these conditions we have.:)

[Helmet]

So, you mean its the same: when I dealt with my anxiety/panic then I can do these things?
No backward solutions?
I tried, sometimes I go to these situations but it leads me to panics. /not good at all, you better know.......AT ALL, yes at last I feel good but is it worth?
Why others are so calm and fine?