Victimrecovery
05-08-11, 21:13
I hope this is okay to do here.
I first started suffering from the symptoms of panic disorder back in 1988.
At that time the symptoms were heaviness in the chest area.
This would hit from time to time, until in the 1990s while visiting back home after being out of contact for a while, the symptoms shifted to numbness all over my body from head to toe. This was the worse panic attack I still to date have ever experienced. (There were deep rooted relationship issues between me and my father for many years growing up).
I grew to face some childhood fears over the next decade and suffered very little panic attacks, but anger/ and escaping were real issues.
Dad died in 2001.
Here at 44 and getting ready to turn 45 next monday over the past months I have suffered and increasing amount of panic attacks. The symptoms are nausia and tingling in the head/ears/hands/ feet/ anal and growen areas.
I have done some more counselling and have developed my personal theory that I truly have been a victim in the past, and panic attacks were a logitimate result, but I am having the time of my life now and the UNKNOWN is really the crucks of that my panic attacks are about these days. I had survived in the mode of victim for so many decades. Now, that I am not faced with those monsters, I am terrorfied that the second shoe will drop just anytime.
Thanks for letting me share with all of you who I am :)
Dan
I first started suffering from the symptoms of panic disorder back in 1988.
At that time the symptoms were heaviness in the chest area.
This would hit from time to time, until in the 1990s while visiting back home after being out of contact for a while, the symptoms shifted to numbness all over my body from head to toe. This was the worse panic attack I still to date have ever experienced. (There were deep rooted relationship issues between me and my father for many years growing up).
I grew to face some childhood fears over the next decade and suffered very little panic attacks, but anger/ and escaping were real issues.
Dad died in 2001.
Here at 44 and getting ready to turn 45 next monday over the past months I have suffered and increasing amount of panic attacks. The symptoms are nausia and tingling in the head/ears/hands/ feet/ anal and growen areas.
I have done some more counselling and have developed my personal theory that I truly have been a victim in the past, and panic attacks were a logitimate result, but I am having the time of my life now and the UNKNOWN is really the crucks of that my panic attacks are about these days. I had survived in the mode of victim for so many decades. Now, that I am not faced with those monsters, I am terrorfied that the second shoe will drop just anytime.
Thanks for letting me share with all of you who I am :)
Dan