haziefantasie
07-08-11, 20:46
Hi everyone
Basically since I started taking antidepressants 9 months ago Ive put on over a stone in weight, & it keeps going up. I kept thinking that when I felt better Id go on a diet & go back to the gym, but I just cant do it :weep:
I joined a gym last week & have been 3 times, but dont seem to be able to get into it. Whereas before I usually did an hours cardio & enjoyed it now I can only do 30 mins max & its a total nightmare. I get so hot, pour with sweat & go so red I look purple. I also keep struggling to catch my breath & go dizzy so have to keep stopping every few mins. I really wanted to do a class like spinning but I think Id collapse, I feel like a complete failure.
Ive thought about trying to diet but I just dont feel able to do that either. I keep eating cheese & cakes all the time & dont feel able to stop. Im also drinking a can or 2 of cider most nights which doesnt exactly help.
This is all starting to get me down again, & I dont know what to do. I managed to lose 4 & a half stone a few years ago so I know how to do it, but I just cant. I feel so useless. I thought I was getting better but how can I be when I hate myself & my body so much? Sorry for the essay I just needed to offload x
Basically since I started taking antidepressants 9 months ago Ive put on over a stone in weight, & it keeps going up. I kept thinking that when I felt better Id go on a diet & go back to the gym, but I just cant do it :weep:
I joined a gym last week & have been 3 times, but dont seem to be able to get into it. Whereas before I usually did an hours cardio & enjoyed it now I can only do 30 mins max & its a total nightmare. I get so hot, pour with sweat & go so red I look purple. I also keep struggling to catch my breath & go dizzy so have to keep stopping every few mins. I really wanted to do a class like spinning but I think Id collapse, I feel like a complete failure.
Ive thought about trying to diet but I just dont feel able to do that either. I keep eating cheese & cakes all the time & dont feel able to stop. Im also drinking a can or 2 of cider most nights which doesnt exactly help.
This is all starting to get me down again, & I dont know what to do. I managed to lose 4 & a half stone a few years ago so I know how to do it, but I just cant. I feel so useless. I thought I was getting better but how can I be when I hate myself & my body so much? Sorry for the essay I just needed to offload x