notright
09-08-11, 03:25
Hi all. I have always had a bit of an issue with worrying but things became really bad when my husband at a young age had to have heart surgery. I had two small children at the time and it freaked me out. Then, he recently had to have open heart surgery again - a shock for us all. I basically went to pieces but held it all in because of our 3 children. I constantly worry about death, him dying I even think of scenarios of funerals! This has been getting worse for about a year and I finally plucked up the courage and emailed him as I couldn't speak to him face to face as I felt stupid. He was shocked to say the least. We have talked which has made things a bit better. I feel I am constantly anxious though and find myself pushing him away because Im worried that if I get close I could loose everything if anything happens. I havent been to the doctors and dont want to go down the track of pills and stuff. I am very unhappy in myself as Im quite over weight but I think the anxiety feeds that as well. Sighhhh.