GirlAfraid23
10-08-11, 22:19
Hello guys.
I'm having some real issues at the moment and I need some help with them.
I am completely and utterly obsessed with one person and I can't stop thinking about him.
Its not just the usual infatuation/love story either.
I see his face everywhere and every single day I think of him...the worrying thing is that I haven't seen him in nearly over a year now.
And haven't spoken to him at all in half a year.
I really want to contact him but I don't know how. The saddest thing is that I have a boyfriend, somebody who I am probably hurting but I can't stop thinking that my life will be complete only with him and nobody else. I also think that he may be secretly in love with me and if I contact him I will make a happy life for both of us.
I know this is an irrational thought.
We met at University and became best friends. We did everything together and spoke to each other everyday. Kissing and closeness ensued and was ruined by his love for his ex girlfriend and my heart was broken. He then realised he had made the wrong decision but by that point it was too late. I had a boyfriend and had moved back to my hometown. I feel as though he is my soulmate and without him my life is nothing. I don't see the point in hiding what I feel as life is too short and what if I die tomorrow?
Sometimes I feel like getting onto a train and turning up at his hometown and waiting for a glimpse of him.
Other times I spend days and nights watching his social network feeds seeing what he is doing.
I am always crying and especially when I hear songs that we both loved and enjoyed.
What do I do?
I don't want to break my boyfriend's life but I know somebody has to get hurt.
Oh and I don't even know for sure if the old flame even cares about me anymore and I don't want to embarrass myself but I know I probably will.
I'm depressed and I know I need some help and quickly.
I'm having some real issues at the moment and I need some help with them.
I am completely and utterly obsessed with one person and I can't stop thinking about him.
Its not just the usual infatuation/love story either.
I see his face everywhere and every single day I think of him...the worrying thing is that I haven't seen him in nearly over a year now.
And haven't spoken to him at all in half a year.
I really want to contact him but I don't know how. The saddest thing is that I have a boyfriend, somebody who I am probably hurting but I can't stop thinking that my life will be complete only with him and nobody else. I also think that he may be secretly in love with me and if I contact him I will make a happy life for both of us.
I know this is an irrational thought.
We met at University and became best friends. We did everything together and spoke to each other everyday. Kissing and closeness ensued and was ruined by his love for his ex girlfriend and my heart was broken. He then realised he had made the wrong decision but by that point it was too late. I had a boyfriend and had moved back to my hometown. I feel as though he is my soulmate and without him my life is nothing. I don't see the point in hiding what I feel as life is too short and what if I die tomorrow?
Sometimes I feel like getting onto a train and turning up at his hometown and waiting for a glimpse of him.
Other times I spend days and nights watching his social network feeds seeing what he is doing.
I am always crying and especially when I hear songs that we both loved and enjoyed.
What do I do?
I don't want to break my boyfriend's life but I know somebody has to get hurt.
Oh and I don't even know for sure if the old flame even cares about me anymore and I don't want to embarrass myself but I know I probably will.
I'm depressed and I know I need some help and quickly.