mum83
13-08-11, 18:54
Hi guys,
I've been trying to piece together how I went from being a general worrier to being someone who felt I needed a doctor's help and medication to sort me out. All this started happening last month. I started getting what I call waves of adrenalin at night and couldn't stop myself from worrying. Had some sleepless nights and my GP wanted me to try Citalopram 20mg. The next day I was a wreck and experienced my first REAL panic attack and it was insane. Really thought I was losing my mind. Took me 3 days to come down from those awful feelings. Still wasn't right afterwards and was waking up at odd hours of the morning with mini panic attacks and then went a 4 day stretch with no sleep, and feeling anxious all day. This time my gp started me on mirtazipine which is working, thank god. I was in such a scary place and am starting to feel like some kind of normal now.
The thing though is this....this might sound ridiculous but I never thought of myself as an alcoholic but when I think back to last month, my husband and I were drinking every weekend, sometimes mid week too and we would mix a bottle of snapps with maybe a half bottle of vodka every time. (We've done this more on than off for a couple yrs.) We were always able to function the next morning because of our children and we never got so "smashed" that we couldn't cope with things but we got into a habit of drinking to ease the stress of daily life, husband's health scares, my mother moving away, etc. Now I'm wondering if the alcohol was giving me a warning with those panic attacks. Maybe even causing them. I have not had a drink in 2 weeks. I don't want to EVER AGAIN. I am feeling better on my nightly dose of mirt. (though groggy but that is a side effect) but my question is.....Will my body eventually go back to normal if I keep avoiding alcohol? Will the panic attacks and anxiety go away in the end too? Basically I want to know if my body (my mind) will repair itself? Has anyone else gone through this?
I've been trying to piece together how I went from being a general worrier to being someone who felt I needed a doctor's help and medication to sort me out. All this started happening last month. I started getting what I call waves of adrenalin at night and couldn't stop myself from worrying. Had some sleepless nights and my GP wanted me to try Citalopram 20mg. The next day I was a wreck and experienced my first REAL panic attack and it was insane. Really thought I was losing my mind. Took me 3 days to come down from those awful feelings. Still wasn't right afterwards and was waking up at odd hours of the morning with mini panic attacks and then went a 4 day stretch with no sleep, and feeling anxious all day. This time my gp started me on mirtazipine which is working, thank god. I was in such a scary place and am starting to feel like some kind of normal now.
The thing though is this....this might sound ridiculous but I never thought of myself as an alcoholic but when I think back to last month, my husband and I were drinking every weekend, sometimes mid week too and we would mix a bottle of snapps with maybe a half bottle of vodka every time. (We've done this more on than off for a couple yrs.) We were always able to function the next morning because of our children and we never got so "smashed" that we couldn't cope with things but we got into a habit of drinking to ease the stress of daily life, husband's health scares, my mother moving away, etc. Now I'm wondering if the alcohol was giving me a warning with those panic attacks. Maybe even causing them. I have not had a drink in 2 weeks. I don't want to EVER AGAIN. I am feeling better on my nightly dose of mirt. (though groggy but that is a side effect) but my question is.....Will my body eventually go back to normal if I keep avoiding alcohol? Will the panic attacks and anxiety go away in the end too? Basically I want to know if my body (my mind) will repair itself? Has anyone else gone through this?