HA is driving me insane

[rainbow]

i think i'm finally losing my mind.

This bout of ha has lasted 11 weeks so far, convinced i have bowel cancer. My little boy told me out of the blue the other day that he'd miss me when i die and this morning he told me he had a bad dream, when i asked him about it he said he does'nt want to tell me. Now i'm convinced he had a dream about me dying! I'm going mad.

[Mirabelle]

You're not going mad. All children reach a stage when they realise that people die. HA makes us hypersensitive to these things. I'm sure your son didn't dream of you dying, he was maybe afraid to talk about the scary dream because he didn't want to be reminded of it.
x

[rainbow]

hi thanks for your reply,

I don't know how i'm going to get through this, every day is awful. I would sleep all day if i could at least then i don't have to think!

I tried to speak to my cbt therapist but she was'nt in, i called my gp and have a prescription for diazepam. I really did'nt want to resort to this but i can't go on like this.