Piscian Daydreamer
09-05-06, 19:10
I'm so sorry everyone, i feel that i am letting myself down by coming back on here to tell you all i'm so depressed.
Last week, you all supported me over my feelings for that girl, and when i made my move found out she has a boyfriend,,, so that was the end.
I've been trying to put a brave face on the situation, but i've been feeling so awful, so depressed, so anxious all week, i don't know where else to go.
After i got the knock back, i thought i could put this behind me, but i havent been able to, in fact, i feel worse because all of my hope has gone. Now, its like this girl has become an icon of my depression, when i see her in class across the room etc, it gives me a complete sick feeling.... i still have feelings for this girl and i cannot seem to wipe her from my mind even though i just want to forget about her completely. The truth is, her prescence is haunting me, and i'm still feeling so depressed.
Ive been feeling so empty for a long long time and feel i have nothing to look forward to. I only go to uni for 2 days a week, the other 5 are spent contemplating my depression. I have tried to get involved with stuff but have failed, hanging with mates doesn't give me any comfort anymore and its unlikely i will be able to get a job until the summer time - i just have nothing to make me happy at weekends, ive lost all enjoyment in the things i used to like.
I'm going to the doctors tomorow but i know that nothing will be solved. He'll tell me to carry on taking the fluoxetine BUT THE DRUGS JUST DON'T WORK????????????????????????? What else can i do to make myself, just feel,,, happy????
I'm going to ask for counselling, but the doctor might not agree that this is the solution.
I feel so so awful.
Last week, you all supported me over my feelings for that girl, and when i made my move found out she has a boyfriend,,, so that was the end.
I've been trying to put a brave face on the situation, but i've been feeling so awful, so depressed, so anxious all week, i don't know where else to go.
After i got the knock back, i thought i could put this behind me, but i havent been able to, in fact, i feel worse because all of my hope has gone. Now, its like this girl has become an icon of my depression, when i see her in class across the room etc, it gives me a complete sick feeling.... i still have feelings for this girl and i cannot seem to wipe her from my mind even though i just want to forget about her completely. The truth is, her prescence is haunting me, and i'm still feeling so depressed.
Ive been feeling so empty for a long long time and feel i have nothing to look forward to. I only go to uni for 2 days a week, the other 5 are spent contemplating my depression. I have tried to get involved with stuff but have failed, hanging with mates doesn't give me any comfort anymore and its unlikely i will be able to get a job until the summer time - i just have nothing to make me happy at weekends, ive lost all enjoyment in the things i used to like.
I'm going to the doctors tomorow but i know that nothing will be solved. He'll tell me to carry on taking the fluoxetine BUT THE DRUGS JUST DON'T WORK????????????????????????? What else can i do to make myself, just feel,,, happy????
I'm going to ask for counselling, but the doctor might not agree that this is the solution.
I feel so so awful.