Hello, I've been around for a while here, suffered on and off since I was 17 now 29 always had a massive fear of medication everything really mainly (Antidepressants) anyway going back to my younger days I did take a few different ones and wasn't so bad felt better on them fast forward to now,not on any haven't been for over 4 years but I really believe it's my last option to try and get better now, I'm very suicidal and that makes me sad because I have a small boy, he's 2. But I can't physically/mentally carry ok for much longer. Not really a depression sufferer at all I just suffer very bad with health anxiety. Always have. Along with panic attacks which I don't don't find that bad its the daily anxiety, the symptoms.
Anyway been prescribed Escitalopram 5mg to start. And I'm petrified. Side effects or being allergic, I have my son I can't afford to be bed bound or feeling funny. But I also can't afford to carry on how I am nomore, I'm scared of pretty much everything. Even down to eating, atm I hardly eat. My mom will video me and have a meal of a evening on video as I'm petrified ill have a allergic reaction and die. This isn't normal, I just want to get better and be better. Does anybody have any tips on how to help myself/ prepare to take this tablet. Due the pandemic and my mom shielding I'm unable to have any help face to face as of yet. Which also makes me very sad :( I'm just lost, literally my last resort is these tabs to help me get better. This isn't fair on my son me being like this either. It's do sad. I'm sorry again for yet another post.