Jittery and easily stressed over health concerns.
Hi
I do have a post in the heart section (about how its 24/7 like a small child is kicking me in the back and rocking me)
However I'm getting more bothered by all the other things, I don't know if I'm descending into being off my trolley, maybe its a med side effect.
I'm very jittery/hypersensitive/aware of things going on and its making things so much worse.
I started down the rabbit hole with my heart problems (I think thats in limbo at the moment - the cardiologist couldnt hear anything alarming but commented my heart was very loud so sent me for an MRI..at some point) I was given some bisoprolol - I have no idea if this is doing anything or not.
I was skeptical of taking beta blockers due to having a naturally low heart rate (50's sat at a desk, 40's when sleeping) - I've never been told its a problem and apart from being aware of it 24/7 It's never caused me any pain/lightheadness etc.
I'm 5 days in now, now when I'm sat at a desk my heart rates in the 40s and I would imagine mid/late 30's overnight. I don't have any dizziness as such but I do feel a bit weaker/tired. I still have the heart thumping (but its not quite as noticeable) but what annoys me is its rocking my hands when trying to do something small/fiddly. It also seems I get easily irritated when I can't do said small and fiddly thing which seems to escalate into me getting stressed/making my heart worse.
Does anyone get into these small cycles they cant get out of?. It's like I can't calm down which is making my symptoms worse..and my symptoms getting worse are stressing me out - I'd never normally get this stressed this easily.
I was obsessed/convinced my heart was on its way out 24/7 for the best part of 2-3 months and I'm not sure if I've caused myself any longer term mental woes. I'm having all sorts of throat pain/headaches/muscle twitching/popping and clicking bones that I'm trying not to think the worst of but its not easy! (at least they come and go)
I'm going to give these beta blockers a couple more days before trying to find out from my doctor if theres anything else I can take that wouldn't lower my heart rate - or do I need anxiety meds instead.
It's starting to cause a problem with work and what little life I have left. but I suppose I'm looking to hear if anyone else has had something similar or if I'm physically & mentally falling apart!
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I got a letter today from the cardiologist which was addressed to the doctor
Thats just freaked me and it sounds completely different to when I was there!
Loud 1st and 2nd heart sound, murmur in mitral region which does not radiate - interestingly heart can be heard through back (I don't like specialists using words such as interestingly - that means they aint sure and its not normal) Due to sounds and murmur have referred for MRI
I'm not sure I was quite at the same consultation as him! - it was all perfectly normal, just a bit of a murmur..theres nothing to worry about. Now hes listing me bleeding faults
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I thought Id update my own thread
It's another month on, I still have the exact same issue with the forceful heartbeat. I'm down to 1.25mg bisoprolol now which does seem to have stopped the odd chest twinges I was getting on 2.5 (probably due to my bpm being 40)
1.25 doesn't seem to have any side effects, however it seems to wear off quite quickly - by late afternoon it feels like I haven't got any left inside me, maybe I can do 1.25 in the morning and 1.25 in the evening to spread the dose about.
My main reason for updating was I had a CT scan with dye this morning (I don't know why - I was meant to be getting an MRI but when the appointment came through it was a CT scan instead) - Now I get to spend the next however long panicking about the results/if I'm being called about it or getting a letter for a new appointment. I did clock my heart rate as 60-70 whilst I was being scanned which surprised me - these beta blockers work! I was easily 100+ when I saw the cardiologist before.
The dye is a funny old feeling! , I would say if anyone's panicking about having a CT scan - its not at all bad, I was more nervous in the waiting area before hand
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What if I told you the issue was your focus and perception, not on your heart?
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I would say you may well be right.
Its generally less forceful in the morning (when my brain has shut up overnight?) and gets progressively more noticeable/annoying during the day. If I'm distracted I don't notice it too much.
I'm not one for exercise (ever) but I did buy a cross trainer with the intent on trying to get fitter. I would say after 4-5km my heart is going like the clappers, my legs are turning to jelly and my pulse is shaking me all over the place - but theres no chest pains or struggling to breathe.
The longer it goes on, the more I'm convinced its something else (I don't know what else can cause a bounding pulse really, an infection or a vitamin deficiency? - possible I guess)
I am edging on the side that my heart is actually fine. But its something that has bothered me somewhat for the best part of 20 years - so having an actual scan now instead of being prodded/ecg I suppose would bring closure to it (providing its ok!)
I think its just annoying that it visibly rocks me, if I didnt move but could feel it - I could accept I'm just over focusing on it, but when my entire body shakes (I'm not as big as I used to be - 6ft and 12.5 stone approx) or when I pick a piece of paper up and its visibly shaking - freaks me out.
I didnt want to run to my doctors claiming it was anxiety for them to shuffle me onto some happy pills and not have a look at anything. I've had a scan now and hopefully if I get an all clear on that one - I'm quite happy to go down the anxiety path and getting help for that as I know its something thats been a long term issue!