Hello - my message to you all.
My first time posting here.
My family have something of a history with the anxiety attack, my Dad and my aunt were recently telling me of their ordeals.
My story begins around April 12th of this 2008. I was thoroughly intoxicated and hit my head on a door, I'm 19 years old . . . I'm not thinking much of it . . . The next week was horrible for me though and so I began to assume the worst. I was feeling weak, dizziness, I was disoriented and I was scared - oh yeah.
So I went to the doctor who believed someone had slipped me a pill . . . nah, I was with close friends, although we did smoke some weed . . . it was stupid but we were drunk and students. So I make another appointment in a few days as things are not improving, then another appointment, and another, then a trip to A+E, then another, and another, and another . . . I ended up visiting my GP 15 times and the hospital around 5 . . . I wanted answers! I was feeling weird! Head rushes, disorientation, pressure, hot flashes on my head, sore neck, difficulty sleeping, headaches . . . I was a wreck and it was emotionally crippling me.
I made another trip, I believe it was my 5th visit to A+E - a doctor, seemingly a specialist believed it would be best to put my conscious at rest and be fiscally savvy to give me a CAT scan to detect any broken bones or bleeding or whatever . . . so I got my head scanned and I braced myself for bad news, prayed for good news and the Lord provided good news. I checked out fine.
I was over joyed, full of enthusiasm - from now on everything was looking up and full recovery was close, so close.
Unfortunately . . . I now feel my heart going, headrushes that have me believe I'm gonna pop, eye and ear troubles, headaches still about, shortness of breath/difficulty breathing at times . . . it comes and goes . . . but when it comes, boy does it arrive . . . this is the worst thing.
Anxiety and panic attacks . . . People, when I got that good news that day from the doctor, I felt good, I still had some stress and symptoms playing on me, even as I walked from the hospital to the bus stop and home . . . but I was smiling.
You know, these symptoms, they have us caught in their web and we are fighting them but we all know what happens to the fly struggling in the web.
We can tackle this problem with anti depressant drugs, constant check ups etc . . . but these offer us momentary satisfaction. We need to stop struggling in the web of anxiety and just leave it, you know? Just jump the **** outta this anxious prison.
I'm not saying it's easy, I'm new to all this . . . about 7 weeks in, approaching 2 months, sure . . . maybe I had or have post concussion syndrome as some doctors say but it's anxiety that's not only hindering my lifestyle but my friends and family . . . my ability to associate with these people and partake in the joys of thier company has been stolen, by me. Me . . . You.
I say we find our day. The day when we are feeling a little more stable, the day we feel we got the upper hand and we look into the mirror and truely see our reflections . . . and I propose we stare with a fierce intensity into our beings and we let ourselves know that we are through suffering, that we can, no, that we will beat this and that we will take charge of our lives and not surrender to our ill functioning sensory systems . . . we will own them and in doing so, we will rule ourselves again.
People . . . I hope I have inspired you with this or at least put a smile on some faces.
Good luck and God bless.
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William!
Words of wisdom!
Your attitude to what is happening is totally spot on - fly in the web - true!
Denise x
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Wow William that was some introduction and such wise words too. As Denise says your description of 'fly in the web' is so very very true.
Welcome to NMP.
Kaz
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Wow, what a great post for someone so Young!
These Day's (no offence) teenagers post in Mobile Phone talk! LOL
I bloody hate MSN and Mobile Phones, my step Children's worst subject is English, I wonder why? LOL
Sorry, gone on a bit of a tangent!
Good luck William.
Wayne
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Wow ...... what i a great post for someone so young, i totally agree.
Welcome :hugs: William.
You last paragraph really got to me it was just so well written ... thank you.
Take good care
Pink
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Hi,
Welcome to the forum, you will get a lot of good advice here and make some new friends
Take care
Trac xx
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Hi William,
Welcome to the site. I really enjoyed your intro.
Hugs,
Laura
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Thank you for the reponses so far, most appreciated . . . wasn't sure if anyone would respond but it's morale boosting that I caught a few eyes with my message.
Seems like a really good community here and I look forward to getting to know you a bit better.
I was watching a television host who was reflecting on his past and he recalls the best remedy when in trouble was engaging in conversation with others who have similar experiences, doesn't cost a penny.
So I hope we all talk a little more
- my e-mail address is william_taylor@hotmail.co.uk
Look on the brightside.
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Hi William
Great post and I have no doubt with your attitude you will come out of this just fine I wish you well and a big welcome to NMP.
Carol
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