Jimmy Carr and Frankie Boyle. I love that really dark humor.Quote:
Originally Posted by MyNameIsTerry
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Jimmy Carr and Frankie Boyle. I love that really dark humor.Quote:
Originally Posted by MyNameIsTerry
So, 8 out of 10 cats and Mock the week would be good programmes for you then. I like them too, more Jimmy I think. Did Jimmy do Distraction in the US? That reminded me a bit of The Word with the things the public are willing to do just to get on the box...the naked wheelbarrow racing was funny.
Shaun Locke is good with Jimmy.
Dudes ! I had one weird ass coincidences well not that much if you think of it, Im talking with a girl(I broke up... I feel free) called karen and I told her I was going to play a song for her called The moon song.
SO I forgot a part of the song so I went looking for it, when I was writting the name of the song youtube suggested me "The moon song - Karen O" I was like damn the name of this girl and I decided to look into that song and it was part of the soundtrack of a movie a friend of mine told me some days ago (her).
So yeah... any suggestions?
I wish I knew how to help, Tom. I am undergoing a family emergency at the moment. My mother has to have her uterus and a large part of her small intestine removed. Her Crohns is severe and I am worried that I am about to lose my mother. My grandfather and myself are watching WWZ and I remembered the "I was only nineteen" quote from the book and worried this an omen that my mother is gonna die. I am scared shitless.
Gats I wish you and your family the best, Im sure she will be all right. There are no omens my friend just relations made by our anxiety. If you need to talk you can always PM me.Quote:
Originally Posted by gatsby12
Well the name is an obvious clue, I think. It makes sense to play a song with some relevance to the person you are dedicating it to. What made you think of it? Something in the song or did the song just sort of pop into your mind? If the later, could it be the subconscious taking in the name of her and making a connection to recall that song?Quote:
Originally Posted by TomT
Ever heard of Mind Pops?
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Sorry to hear your mum is unwell, gatsby. I hope she makes a swift recovery.Quote:
Originally Posted by gatsby12
Some of this magical thinking is tempting when going through trauma like this, we turn on ourselves and berate ourselves over even the smallest thing we said to them years ago that are long forgotten. Plus your stress levels are naturally well high right now and so all those negatives from the anxiety, the distorted, skewed & biased thinking, will be intense.
Try to remember that despite what these intrusive thoughts are trying to point out, you truly can't influence the world with thoughts, they require actions to make them real and this is all out of your control anyway. That's another issue for us, the lack of control but really it's just an intense version of what anyone would feel in your situation, we would all feel helpless and have to trust in the doctors when we would do anything to help.
Just being there for her is all any mother would want from a son. All we can do otherwise is keep an eye on the doctors and make sure they do their best for our loved ones.
Man, my nerves. If its not my OCD its my family. I cant get over this sound I just heard and I just had my pc checked for viruses.
sigh.
BUT you know what it is, your anxiety. Some people would be chasing & chasing, asking questions, etc which all continues to fuel it. You aren't doing this.
At this very stressful time your anxiety is going to be difficult, you would have to be pretty far along in your recovery to be able to take all this on without it spiking. So, whilst it is possibly very hard or not possible at all right now, it's something to accept and just battle on. Once through this period, you can then start working on it again.
I hope your mum is doing well.
I've been trying to separate the demon in my mind from me and trying to address the problem from there. I have noticed I can't exactly fight this unless there's two distinct sides.Quote:
Originally Posted by MyNameIsTerry
The more I put it into form the easier it gets but the easiest thing is difficult when you are struggling against yourself and know all your own moves. It's amazing to finally have days of peace where I can actually do things. I have been handling my anxiety like you handle severed fire hose- I have a firm grip but it's still wild ride. I had my last real episode with my kleptomaniacal drunk aunt calling and trying to make my mother's illness all about her which put me in a rage and made me say my peace.
I am trying to keep my mother from dying but I still know that's not my call and that's chance throwing the dice and a stranger who I have never met holding her in their hands. I feel less anxious and more melancholy now, I suppose. Time will still tell.
Yes, anxiety being within us knows our weak spots and our strategies. I often see it as a form of energy and if you don't get rid of it, it just finds another way to come out. Some talk about it on here as the coals of a fire, others a jug of water spilling over, maybe even the old reference to someone plugging holes in the dam with their fingers.
If we don't tackle the roots, it grows back, and not always in the same way. This is very relevant to some of us OCDers, the people who dodge from theme to theme spring to mind.
Yes, those days of peace are the beginning. What then happens is that they become more regular as the bad days become less regular. Like you are tipping the scales in another direction.
Environmental factors, such as the aunt, will be battles we always have in life, we just need to work on how we handle them so they don't affect us like they used to. Some situations are very hard, like all this you are going through. I think as well from reading many threads on here that we almost think the pain we are experiencing in these situations is due to our disorders but this is false. Only some of it is, it's very normal for anyone to experience anxiety, fear, mood swings, etc in such emotionally challenging times. We need to remember this, accept and not make it something our demon can use against us as a bigger spear whilst we are going through it all.
We can keep the doctors on their toes, we don't have to accept what they say just because they are doctors. But at the same time, balance in all things, so at some point accepting being helpless is all we can do. The important thing is being their for your mum because that's something none of the doctors can do, only her loved ones. That's your role in times like this.