Re: My Escitalopram diary
Karen,
I am really happy to hear your days are getting better and better. I knew it would happen eventually. I guess everyone is different when it comes to adjusting to the meds. It sure sounds like you've turned the corner. I pray that it continues. My wife is doing a bit better, check my thread for more details. Thanks for asking.
Sam & Katy: Your turn is coming, hang in there...
Mike
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I actually cried buckets last night. My little boy is away on a 2 night school trip from today and he got upset last night and I got anxious and went to bed and just cried as I couldn't stand the thought of forcing him to go and him being unhappy. Plus I knew I would be worring all the time he is gone but after a long chat about when I went on the same trip many years ago now and how much I loved it and didn't even want to come home, he was fine and said he'd be brave and go. Needless to say, I only slept till 4am last night and felt very anxious and low when I woke up. I started to feel better as we headed for school, William was still fine thankfully but I'm feeling pretty lost and low today and though I don't have any anxiety as such, I feel like I could cry buckets again. William has only really stayed at my Sisters once or twice and this is the first time he has been gone away more than one night and because last year was incredibly difficult and horrible and still feels very raw, we are both a bit clingy with eachother but I now he's probs having a fantastic time already and I'm still hormonal too, ha ha!
Re: My Escitalopram diary
Hi Karen, jack went on a 4 day residential last year in the height of my anxiety and i was awful, i kept asking him if he was sure he wanted to go lol, i was that bad on the morning he left i was retching in the kitchen sink :ohmy: like you until i married hubby it was always just me and jack and we're very close and even tho i missed him like hell and kept thinking of him he had an absolutley fantastic time but my life it was the longest 4 nights of my life!! xxxxx
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It's terrible isn't it Nicola. I've just had to take Lorazepam because I suddenly felt so anxious and cried my eyes out again and I know he's ok as I've just had a text from school and I know nothing is going to happen to him. I think it's also the thought of been alone for 2 nights though my Sister has told me to pop round to hers any time and invited me for tea tomorow. Plus I think it's partly because I have been so afraid of my solicitor getting in touch and saying my Husband has put in for a residency order to take him away from me and he was scheming to take him when we first split up just so he could keep hold of our house which he's taken ff the market and still hasn't given us one thing from, including our personal belongings. I thought I was way over it all but guess the wounds run deep. I'll bet when my little boy comes home on Wednesday night I will be shouting,"I wish you was back at Cliffe house" too after five minutes and he's making loads of nosie and running me ragged, ha ha ha.
Ta Nic xxxxx
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sending you a:bighug1: xxxxx
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Ta Nicola (:
One more night till my little man comes home, I've had anxiety most of this afternoon which I've not had for ages so feel a bit flat and fed up as I really though I was getting really well but even though I know it's only because I am worried over William and I will probs be ok again once he's home, why do I have to be like this???
Re: My Escitalopram diary
You're just a loving mom :) He'll be home soon safe and sound
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Karen:
As hard as it is for you, i think you have too look at it positively. He will have to learn to be more independent because you won't be there. Its a good learning experience for him. I think he will come back better off in the long run because of the experience.
Mike
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You're absolutley right, he's probd having a brilliant time and it's just me getting worked up worrying. I slept fine last night but feel really aggitaed again now so I'm going to take my Nephew along to school with my Sister and then go into town to do a bit of food shopping and hopefully that will work off some of this excess adrenalin as I dont want to pop any pills to calm down. I still think this blip is partly hormones too as I always feel more aggitated but it will all come right once I have been on Cipralex long enough (:
Hope every one else is feeling a it better (:
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feeling totally fine now, anxiety has gone now Wills is due home (: