Originally Posted by
olivia0703
This is kind of a disingenuous question. You know what I am doing. I am trying to find the one thing that will convince me I don't have it. It's how HA works. If it is HA. And around we go in the endless circle of what if? It's not a lifestyle choice to be like this. It's an anxiety disorder. Maybe. Unless I am right this time. And on it goes. It's a carousel of fear.
As for Lolalee just randomly popping on here to be rude, how is this helpful? Do you think I don't know it's shite? I'd much rather be mindlessly watching Christmas movies (no, I wouldn't) and playing with kittens, but that's not how my brain is working right now. A bit of compassion never hurts, or else say nothing. Don't tell me it's "tough love" or some shit. You don't know me. You don't get to gamble with people's states of mind and what could potentially push someone over the edge at this time of year. Be kind