Originally Posted by
Buster70
Hi all , haven't posted for bit as I've been a bit of a downer , feeling very lonely so here I am not dead after all .
I started this thread a few months ago when my partners benefits where stopped, just to say on time frame of sorting out an appeal part of the benefits were reinstated quite quickly but the other carer's and back dated money still hasn't been paid , they just say there is a backlog , if I hadn't been going out buying and selling we wouldn't have a home by now , I would actually be enjoying getting out and dealing with people if the anxiety would allow me ( constantly tensed up , can't breath and pins and needles in my arms , not good for the confidence) .
So most weeks have been a constant argument with my partner , working is tiring me out so I've had no time for her so she wants to split up , no work no money or work and no relationship can't win .
Yesterday my younger daughter and bf moved out which has left me feeling pretty low , seeing an empty bedroom for the first time was quite upsetting, that part of our lives is now over plus my mum getting ill has made me feel as if things are changing very quickly and coming to an end ( not sure if that makes sense ? ) it also means even less money coming in .
I guess I'm at a crossroads and feeling a little lost .
I hate having nothing positive to say or not seeing some funny side to this mess we call life so I'll end with somthing that made me laugh the other day , my granddaughter who I adore was round , it was baking hot and my anxiety was raging , she wanted somthing out of our cupboard under the stairs but couldn't reach it so she pestered me to crawl in , I got on my knees and trying reaching into the darkness , I was holding an ice sucker and said to her hold this while I reach in so she did , I bent back in trying to stretch to the item when shock horror the little bleeder put the ice sucker up my back , I jumped up and said what the hell , she was pissing herself and just "said well youve been moaning all day you're too hot " , I had to laugh it's exactly what I would have done :roflmao:
Well that's about all Ive got to say , catch yo'all laters .:bighug1: