Originally Posted by
Buster70
Im really struggling now the day of the mammogram is getting closer and I can see my partner has gone from what ever to I’m sure I have it , if she’s worried and she doesn’t normally worry about her health then it makes me worry more , I feel physically sick and tearful from when I wake to when I go to sleep at night , it seems there is a constant bombardment on tv of people with cancer , it feels like a ticking time bomb and we’re just waiting for it to go off , I can feel okay for a short while when people say she will be okay , the doubt sets in and completely takes over , what if what if what if , I’ve been with her for so long I can’t imagne a life without her , now the kids have left and my parents are gone she’s my life , we had plans of a life at the coast but come Friday this could all change , or it could be good news and put things into perspective, I can’t sleep , eat or work right now my head is not on the job , I’m getting upset just writing this but maybe if I get it out this way I can go out with the dogs and not over think for a while .