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sadie,
when i was very young(a few years back)i dropped out of med school,after three years...my room mates were into sex drugs,and booze,and i had to join in,or run away,so i ran.....the last four years ive tried to catch up,and have my finals next april...i then wont to study phsycotherapy..6yr course..so fat chance ive got of a relationship..never mind,ive got charlie,and her horse...bryan.
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Meg,
My husband (peter) went off to Oman just after the war there for 6 weeks to do some training for his company. It was a complete nightmare for me..apart from missing him terribly, I couldnt bare living myself. The thought of being in the house myself panicking with no-one there to help if I needeed it was too much for me. I hated being reliant on Peter to an extent but would never stop him doing anything he wanted to do. In the end I was kind of like a gypsy for those 6 weeks, staying at my parents,at the in-laws, my sisters, friends or my friends staying at mine.
maybe I should have just done it and stayed myself and maybe I wouldn't be so scared now..I don't think I'm ready for that just yet though!
sadie
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washing machine has stopped...yipee:)
sadie
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meg..round two.
sometimes its easy to confuse rational fears..home alone..with irrational fears..oh god,ime home alone,i wont be able to cope.
they both arise from a fear going back thousands of years,where a man was the protector of his woman.
bryan.
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Bryan,
Well done for going back and having the courage to finish off your course!! It must be difficult with working and studying...[:0]
So tell me then, do you suffer anxiety/panic attacks or is this just helping you with your studies? [^]
sadie
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sadie,
i was lucky enough to find this site,doing research into OCD,for a friend of mine in the states,she had fostered a little girl,and was worried about some of her behaviour.
i fell in love with this site,and the people on it,so ive stayed around,and made some really good online friends...i try to keep out of the heavy side of the site,leaving that to meg,as she has been there,done it,and wears the T shirt with pride..meg is one of those people,i would love to meet around a roaring fire,lots drink,and talk all through the nite..she is the angel of this site,and is helping day by day to get people through there problems..and i really dont think she realises how important she is to the people on here....bryan.
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Bryan,
yeah I totally agree..as you say, Meg not only knows what she is talking about through her own personal experience but she has her knowledge from her nurses background also. She is a definite assest to this site. Although, I think everyone who takes the time to listen and offer advice to other fellow sufferers are soo important too, as everyone is unique on how their anxiety affects them. Its good to understand how it affects us all diferently but yet we can all as a group understand the fear the symptoms cause no matter how they present themselves.
Anyway, thanks for the support tonight..I know you have probably been quite busy with the books etc.
Going to try and get myself settled and see if I can drop off to sleep as I am shattered..was a hard day at the office.
Take care and thanks again.
sadie
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goodnite,my friend,youve done really well tonite,be proud of yourself,and dont forget to treat yourself..remind me tomorrow to tell you about hotmail..ideal for a nite like this one..bryan xxx
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Hiya Sadie,
I've just read your post from last night and hope yu feel more settled this morning.
I don't like being left alone and it can bring on panic, but i do get left alone and I do survive. the other night after a few hours of being alone and a massive panic attack I actually quite enjoyed it!!! Having a bath watching what i wanted etc!!!
Before the bad anxiety started I liked being alone.
Curling up with a book and not having someone 'bend' my ear
Anyho hope u are well sadie
Take care
Lucky
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Hi Guys
I'm going to throw a spanner in the works now - I always get a bit anxious when my mum goes away, but end up not wanting her to come home by the end of her holiday! I'm not very good at stopping in all night on my own, so I usually pop round to see a friend for a chat and a cuppa, and then I go home and am fine.
What I don't like is other people stopping in my house! A friend (who I know reasonably well) asked in the summer if she could stop on New Years Eve. I was drunk and not thinking and said yes.
Now I've phoned her and lied and told her that my mums friend is stopping. I feel really guilty about this, but I;m not sure what I am doing on New Years eve yet. This is the first time in eight years I won't have to work first then meet everybody to play catch up. Consequently I have been invited to loads of different things, and I want to keep my options open and decide what to do later. My friend doesn't know my other friends, and therefore she can't tag along. Also, she really enjoyed going round the village last year, and I hated it, and fancy doing something different this year.
I know I should address the issue and not run away, but I don't think New Years Eve is the best time to do it.
I am only just getting used to stopping at other peoples houses which I try to do whenever the opportunity arises.
Do you think I'm being mean? I'm getting quite wound up about the fact that I have let her down, but alot of the people we would normally go out with are not here this year, so what she wants to do will not be the same anyway.
I know I should have tackled it head on, and let her stop, but I don't think New Years eve is a very good time to do it. I'm not a New Years person anyway, and find it quite depressing (although I always make the effort and go out and make myself enjoy the celebrations)
Charlie