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Diana
I do think she is being selfish though - not nice to put you through all this stress and worry.
Perhaps you could just say that to her and that it causes you anxiety etc. May be worth a try.
Glad we all helped you feel better though.
Nicola
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Dear All
Well as you know, I had a bad week last week, and spent most of it being anxious for no reason, so I booked myself in for an induction at the gym on Friday afternoon. (Exercise yourself out of it)
I left work at lunchtime, and went to Sainsburys to buy some stuff for the dinner party I was cooking for my mum on Saturday.
I left Sainsburys at 1 and realised I had an hour to get home, changed and to the gym. Loads of time, thought I, I'll just pop through the car wash on my way out.
So in I goes (£4.99 Ultimate Wash my a**e). It's a new car wash, and has big doors that close once you are in it. Scary, so I decided to fill in my New Year New Me book, as I was getting it up to date, I realised that the week long anxiety had finally lifted! I was no longer panicky for no reason.
Hurrah I thought, I can look forward to going to the gym, I didn't feel sick anymore, and the butterflies had gone from my tummy, I couldn't feel my heart beating, in fact, I was feeling GOOD!
So there I am, filling in my book, and the car wash is going on. So I sort out my finances, and the car wash is still going on, so I get my book out and read a few pages, and the car wash is still going on. Then it registers. I look at the clock. I have been in the car wash for 23 minutes. The car wash has malfunctioned. I am trapped in a large perspex box, at the mercy of it's soapy rollers. WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME??? I must have been a serial killer in a past life, and now I'm paying the price.
The car wash was still doing something - blowing the heat down, and into the very large puddle of water in front of the car, and creating huge tsunami waves which were lapping the side of the car wash (ok they weren't that big), and the emergency stop button and the escape door were also infront of the car, and behind the tsunami.
All of a sudden I realised I was starting to have a panic attack. I was stuck in the car wash. I had a car full of shopping that needed unloading, and I had to get home and changed, and I was going to be late from the gym.
I started doing my breathing exercises, and tried not to think about the water, cos by this time I needed the toilet too. Getting out of the car wasn't an option, and anyway what would happen if it suddenly decided to wash and roll and I was out of the car. Despite starting to loose the plot, I couldn't face attracting attention to myself by beeping the horn, cos then everybody would know I'd freaked out, and I couldn't bear that, so I started driving backwards and fowards, backwards and fowards, feeling more like a distrubed patient by the minute. Eventually, it flipped something in the car wash memory, and it stopped blowing hot air everywhere, the rollers moved to the side and the DOOR OPENED. I floored it and got out of there before it changed its mind, not even stopping to take the french stick wrapper off the back wiper.
I made it home, with enough time to throw the chicken and other perishables in the fridge, and threw my gym stuff on, and fled the house. I got to the gym 5 minutes late, but the bloke just laughed. He said he knew it must be genuine, cos nobody would make up being stuck in the car wash.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, the gym was ok. My body fat and BMI were loads lower than I thought, it was really quiet and there were no steroid induced wierdy muscle men leering, so it didn't matter that I looked like a beetroot, was dripping wet and stunk like a skunk.
Apart from not being able to walk down the stairs from the gym (what sort of idiot puts a gym on the second floor), I felt great.
I slept like a baby on Friday night, had a good day on Saturday, and made it back to the gym on Sunday, despite having the hangover from hell. It even made me feel a bit better. I have done a deal with Judy, and she is going to muck my horse out on a Wednesday night, so I can go to the gym on Wednesday and at the weekend.
Thanks for all your encouragement guys. I'm really hoping that this is going to be the start of a new and better year for me!
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Oh Charlie,
So Well done for managing to right the car wash, cope with it all and still continue with your day which wa sgoing to be a challenging one anyway !!
You are so nearly there - now it's just confidence building and that will come through repetition!!
Congratulations
Meg
Watch your thoughts, they become your words...
Watch your words, they become your actions... Watch your actions, they become your habits... Watch your habits, they become your character... Watch your character, it becomes your destiny...
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Dear Meg
Well I'm glad you think so.
Looks like the Vitamin B Complex, the gym, and this forum, and all the supportive people on it could just be my salvation.
(Still want to be a guinea pig for you though Meg, and also improve my visualisation techniques!!!! So don't forget to post them when they are ready!)
Love
Charlie
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Charlie,
OH MY GOD!!!!
I think you done great!!!
Trapped in a car wash is my worst nightmare - I can't even use them. i think even 'normal' people would struggle greatly with that one. and the fact you went to the gym afterwards shows how great you really are doing. Alot of people (and I include so called 'normal' people would have said 'to h##l with it' and went for a stiff drink or 5!!
Proud of you Charlie
love
lucky
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Well Done Charlie - the gym thing sounds like it is really going to work.
As for the carwash I got anxious just reading that so you coped brilliantly!
Emily
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Thanks so much for your encouragement guys!
The trick will be this Friday, when I am going to the gym for my weights induction - dare I try a trip to Sainsburys first!
Hope it doesn't turn anybody against car washes though - I've been using this one for years and never had a problem with it before!
Love
Charlie
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Charlie,
I've always hated car washes anyway. Prefer to give mine a wee spit and polish. (Well not me personally i prefer my other half does it!!!)
PS the weights at the gym are fantastic
Love
lucky
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wow,charlie,
ime speachless,for once...great stuff..bryan.
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Bryan
You speechless? Bet you still had a chuckle though didn't you????
In hindsight it was quite amusing, Dawn roared her head off when I told her at work today.
And obviously I had a lovely sense of double achievement, I survived (and in an obviously masochistic way) torture in the gym, and ordeal by car wash!
Just so glad I didn't have to get out - kept remembering the pain on Stevie O's face when he went through the car wash on Jackass wearing only his leopard skin posing pouch. (Not that I have a posing pouch obviously, but I'm sure car wash fully clothed would be very cold and painful to say the least)
Charlie