day 26
Feeling fed up right now, I had a panic attack this morning so big blip. I'm at my doctorstomorrow because 5mg's isn't enough to make my anxiey calm down????
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day 26
Feeling fed up right now, I had a panic attack this morning so big blip. I'm at my doctorstomorrow because 5mg's isn't enough to make my anxiey calm down????
Oh hun :hugs: sending you big :hugs: x x x x
Thanks Nicola, hope you are ok. I've been really calm the last few days too but it's just been the last though I'm hardly sleeping and working myself up about it I think. I might swap Cipralex to mornings and see if that helps, will def speak to my doctor tomorrow as I really need this meds to work now and get off stuff like zopiclone and Lorazepam as I also get worked up about how long my doctor will give me these kind of drugs.
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so always worry when I start to run low on them, pathetic I know but I am so scared of panic attacks that it's my own fault I end up having one.
Karenp:
Sorry to hear you have been struggling the last few days. Lets face it, you been through a very stressful stretch in your life with your marriage. I think that might be a good idea to try taking it in the mornings. I dont think you have much to lose, but others might disagree. I've been taking mine in the mornings since day 1. That's about the only thing we are doing differently. It's 7:38 pm here right now and I am starting to feel my eyes getting tired now.
I'm praying things get better for you, I still believe they will in time.
Take care,
Mike
Thank You Mike, I hope so too even though I just had the worst night for ages. William had terrible tooth ache all night long and wa sliterally screaming so I just kept getting more and more anxious, have had zero sleep and have been sick 5 or 6 times. I'm about to make an appointment to visit my doctor and tell him even though I def want to stick the Cipralex out, he needs to help me more with my terrible sleep pattern as until that comes a bit right I don't see me getting well as I have a real problem about not sleeping at night, I panic over it!
Any how, little man is at the dentist at 11am to get his teeth sorted out so hopefully we'll sleep tonight.
Hi Karenp,
Same here with the sleep, no sleep for me last night, and before and before Night felt like eternity. I think ichecked the clock every 5-15 mins.
If i het a good sleep my anx will go right down.
Strangely when i was out and about dropping kids off and on the way to work i felt better than few days ago. So cipralex must be starting to work somehow.
Hope something will start working for you.
I am pretty sure that every time its not just one magic remedy that works - ita combination of every effort, same as whats leading to anx period - not just one reason - many reasons...
I totally agree Thumbalina, I know once I start having less anxiety I forget about it more and more and do more stuff which leads to less and less anxiety if that makes sense (:
I think Cipralex is doing something for me already too as I more or less feel fine during the day even after my blip weekend where as 3 weeks ago I was often having bad afternoon anxiety, watch now I've put that I will get some this afternoon, ha ha!
I'm full of cold now too....speaking of opening my mouth and saying stuff like,"I've not had a cold once this year" to my Mum the other day, lol!
I'm the same too, if my sleep came back I'd be so much better, I dread night time and the doctor I've just seen wants me to take only one Lorazepam now instead of 2. He also wants me to go up to 10mg's of Cipralex so I'm scared, ha ha! He did say it should really kick in then so I might give it a try tonight or I might do an extra half. He said if I had no side effects starting off on 5mg's I should be ok going up to 10 but normal Citalopram has scared me off SSRI'S for life ): He also said some people even go up to 20mg's so 10 is no biggie says he who has probs never taken an ad in is life (;
So as I say, I might just do an extra half tonight if I'm not too chicken, ha ha!
Karen:
I know when i am triggered badly, which hasn't happened since October 17th.. One of the first things that goes through my head is. "Great, now i won't sleep!." I completely psych myself out to the point where i won't allow my body to relax enough to fall asleep. It sounds to me like you are so anxious at night your mind is just spinning with negative thoughts.
I know there are lots and lots of people who take their meds at night with no problems hoping to sleep off any side effects. I take my 5 mg at roughly 6 AM because i work so early and usually 8 AM on weekends. When i was getting over the first 20 days or so i found i was more anxious in the mornings and into the afternoon before i finally got some relief at around 2 PM or 3 PM. Then i felt fine all evening and by the time 9 PM came along i was dead tired and falling asleep on my couch. You seem to take your med in the evening or before bed sometime, then you go through the anxiety i was having in the mornings all night and into your morning, but it seems to get better in the early afternoon. One of the things you have stated in the beginning is how you were super sensitive to SSRI's, so that is likely part of the issue too.
It sounds to me the med is the most active in our bodies for 5 or 6 hours after you take it, which for me in the beginning was always the most anxious time of my day. So, if your sleeping is being affected, i would seriously consider taking it in the mornings. My doctor told me to take it in the mornings and NOT at night. I didn't question it, i just did it. The other thing he told me is to make sure you take it with food. I always have a bowl of cereal and a banana or something then take it. Anytime i take it on its own i get one of those full body hot flush things.
Hope this helps.
Mike
Thanks Mike, that really does help. I noticed last night when I couldn't sleep at all I had those flushes and not exactly panic anymore, just real horrible restlessness which I guess is an improvement and I can feel the meds trying to do something. I may take half a pill tonight then and then half tomorrow morning and then switch to day time as I always took normal Cit mornings apart from one time but always slept on Citalopram, apart from the very first couple of days.
William and I have slept most of this afternoon so now I'm worried I'll be wide awake all night again and am meant to only take one Lorazepam pill now, even 2 didn't help much, argggghhh! ): I'm absolutely full of cold too, how's yours? I feel wonderful, I honestly do, moaning effort! ha ha ha ha!
My Sister's just dropped by and told me to just go on the 10mg dose now as it might mean I get well in time for Christmas rather than being scared of a few days of heightened anxiety and if it does hit me bad, I can always go back and ust tell the doctor I need a few more Lorazepam for a couple of days to help it. But being on the 5mg's honeslty hasn't been all that bad heightened anxiety wise and I've had quite a bit of really flat mood more than actual anxiety as apart from early mornings and over this past weekend, my anxiety levels have been brilliant.
The doctor did say hopefully the Cipralex should kick in really soon now so I hope he's right as I read loads of reviews earlier and most people said they felt much beter around week 4 much like yourself. I just hope I'm not one of the unlucky ones that it takes 4 months to level out on, there I go being all negative, ha ha! It's brill to have your support on here though, knowing how well you are feeling on the whole now in such a short time and I know though I feel pretty rough right now (ta to this dreadful winter cold) I am so much better than I was before I started Cipralex, I've been out so many more times lately than the past few months.
Thubalina, how are you today???? Hope every one else is ok (:
DAY 28
I have decided not to up my dose of Cipralex just yet as I have a really bad cold so am on paracetamols that have caffeine in them and feel hyper and whenever I am ill I always am a bit more anxious than usual so I shall get over this fluey type nusiance first. But at least I slept from 9pm till 3am last night, took a Lorazaepm pill and managed to drop back off till 6 but woke up having brain zaps, flushes and was really shakey so I am making an appointment to see the lady doctor on Friday to tell her I aren't ready to cut my Lorazepam down to just one pill a day yet as this cold is either making me anxious or because I only took half a Cipralex the first week or so could it be I am peaking at 5mg's adujsting to the dose side effect wise. And hopefully I'll settle down in the next few days again. I've been up and about a bit now and am alot more calm but still feel a bit like a jelly, ha ha ha! Even though I've just rang my Mum up who says the shaking might be symptoms of my fluey type thingy too.
I have to nip into the denitst today and sign some forms so William can get his molars sorted by a specialist. He was crying last night because he thinks he is having every tooth pulled and was wanting false teeth, bless him, ha ha! I eventually managed to explain he's only having his back teeth pulled because they have grown wrong so I promise he won't be Mr Gummy! lol! He's still got some pain but is on antibiotics and a stronger pain killer and pretty much ok so he's off back to school tomorrow and happily glued to the Simpsons right now and hopefully as the day progresses I'll calm down even more and stop wobbling like this big jelly, ha ha ha!
How's every one else doing????