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Jo, I know you feel a little anxious today but your general tone is upbeat. Thats great! Good thinking on how you feel about work to, rather than panicking you are trying to make sense of your feelings which shows you are in control, good for you matey, so pleased for you!
Hope you are having a nice day today...xx
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Oh Lynne,
Thanks for that...you have made me feel so much better. Jo.xx
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Day 11 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Well I ended up having an awful night last night. Took meds at 9pm as per usual, watched dancing on ice then went to bed. Read for a while then started to doze. Must of felt to sleep then suddenly woke up feeling all panicky and sick. Dashed to the loo and had awful runs. Just felt dreadful really anxious etc. After I just could not go anymore (pardon the details) I took 2x2mg diazepam and went back to bed. Eventually I dropped off again.
I woke up this morning feeling horrible, anxious and just not right. I got up forced myself to do the treadmill and coped o.k. with it but it was kind of going through the motions if you get what I mean. I have work on my mind and I know it is that. It is ridiculous because I love my job and the people there, I know I am going back on reduced hours to start with and I know I will have support so why am I anxious?? It drives me mad how I feel this way, so silly but I just cannot help it. I have a week before I go back anyhow. Admittidly I am seeing my Manager tommorow and will be going back for the first time into the work place since begginning of November last year. I feel I have to do it before I go back to make it less of a hurdle. I I I what stress we put ourselves under!!! Am trying to distract myself the best I can today!!! Hope the day gets better, its sometimes like you feel you have to do something right now to take away the anxious feeling beforehand, well thats how I get. It's like getting it out of the way. I just hope tommorow helps me and then I can enjoy the rest of my last week off rather than constantly fretting about next Monday...try not to??? Why oh why do I get like this.....Jo.
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Day 12 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Well here we are day 12 and I think that I am at last starting to feel the benefit of the increase in the medication.
I still wake heavy but it disappears really quickly now. I also feel alot of positive thoughts first thing in the morning whereas before there was still alot of dread in my thoughts.
I am suprised today that as I have my appointment with my manager I expected to have a bad night and feel awful this morning but I had neither, so for me that is encouraging. I kind of feel quite excited at the thought of seeing everyone again.
A huge step for me today....I so hope it all goes o.k. Let you know later.................
Jo
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Back from the meeting and it went really well. Was lovely to see everyone again and I felt absolutely fine!!! So good sign for me. I am actually looking forward to Monday now!! Horray....may it continue. Jo.
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Hello Jo,
I have just read through this whole thread and you can really see that day by day you are getting better.....which I have to say makes me feel more hope so thank you!
Anyhow I hope this continues and that once you get back to work things continue to improve! Well done and keep going!
x
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Thankyou Hallam 11!! Means alot to me your reply. Good luck to you too, I will offer you my support. Jo.xx
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Jo, I am so pleased your meeting went well with work. I bet it has really motivated you hasn't it? Do you feel better now about going back? Lynne xx
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Hi Lynne,
Yes I feel so excited about going back now. I really felt that I would be anxious etc today and just couldn't believe I felt so well, I didn't even need to take a diazepam or anything.
My manageress was so supportive, she agreed to the plan of return hours I had done and said that we would review them every week and if they were too much would reduce accordingly.
It was lovely to see the people I work with too, it just broke the ice, everyone said how well I looked and how much they had missed me, made me feel valued.
I just have to make sure that I dont over-do it and when I do come home I switch off or I will have hubby to contend with.
So when you get back from your holiday I will have plenty to fill you in on.
I just hope this feeling continues and I am able to enjoy these last few days I have before I go back.
Thanks for posting, you have been a great support to me and I love chatting to you.
love Jo.xx
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Day 13 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
What a difference a day makes!!! Just shows you can never count your chickens!!!
Had very restless night last night...poor hubby had a bad stomach and was up and down to the loo. Bless him, still went off to work. Guess he had what I had on Sunday evening.
Due to restless night woke up pretty early and was dozing in and out of sleep, got up around 8ish. Mood bit low today....monthlys due....feel tired due to that and from restless night plus I surpose I bit of back lash from yesterday being such a big day, guess it takes it out of you a bit!!
Still went and did my hour on the treadmill as I know excercise is good.
Visited sister-in-law, but just felt exhausted up there today so came back and going to just potter around today.
Still waking up with the "anxious feeling" but really have to just accept this is how I wake up as before I "crashed" back in October I would often wake feeling like that, its not nice but pretty norm for me, dont surpose it will ever go.
I have bought all the Claire Weekes books, am going to read them and see if I can apply anything that may help get rid of the "morning" feeling.
Hope everyone having good day today. Jo.