Yeah, I do need to find some regular practices to settle myself.
Today is just about getting through now, I’m really struggling.
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Yeah, I do need to find some regular practices to settle myself.
Today is just about getting through now, I’m really struggling.
There's a saying.... "Actions speak Louder than Words".
This is so true with dealing with Anxiety.
Your habit of saying "I'm really struggling" and "I've just get through". What you are telling your body and mind is not productive. Even if you change that sentence to, I'm not great this morning but maybe the afternoon and evening I will feel different. Even better, say "I'm having a moment". What you are doing is confirming a bad day before it's even happened. You are predicting the future.
I've only known you a short while but you don't strike me as a person who is generally fearful. I think you have formed a routine habit of what you think is safety and comfort. Your thoughts are controlling your life. You have created phobias from an over stimulated imagination, almost to the point of confusing reality with fantasy.
You are living in a perpetual condition of 'Groundhog Day' and unless you change your reaction to your thoughts and feelings, that will be your life.
People on here are trying to help, guide you, share the same feelings and encourage you to a road of living, but tell me honestly, do you want that? It's not unknown for suffers to want to stay in this way. There have been times where you try things, but does it last? Have a plan, goals and stick to it. I know you feel terrible, we hear it, we all have times we feel terrible, but you have to push through them and carry on, otherwise you will just stay the same way. Do stuff you really want to do, not just chores,so you wake up in the morning with an attitude of 'I can't wait to get started'. Saying, "I've just got to get through" will leave you with the same attitude day after day, week after week until you don't even need to say it anymore, it will just be your way of life. Sad, but true!
In this instance I am, because I pushed myself so hard yesterday, and I haven’t slept, at all. I’m currently laying on my back in bed, with my work next to be just having panic after panic.
You’re absolutely right about the way I create routines of comfort, I basically shut down any avenues to potential anxiety and try and live there. To a point where I actually have nowhere to run to now. I am however trying to push back out and get going again. The last 2 days I pushed my boundaries really hard, and this is obviously the result of that… which is my frustration, that whatever I do seems to backfire. My thoughts are controlling me at the moment, I just can’t get out of my head.
You’re correct that every day just feels like Groundhog Day, I’m just trying to survive, constantly, but that isn’t what I want. I actually have a very decent life, and I want nothing more than to get it back, all I have been doing for the last 5 months is trying to break free and get it back.
This is where my biggest problem is this mental exhaustion. I can’t get my head into anything else because I simply can’t focus on it. I can’t think clearly about anything, ever, even when I manage to get myself relatively calm my mind is simply shot to bits. Which I assume is why it’s landing on all sorts of nonsense because it’s never switching off.
I understand everything you have said and stuff you haven't said. You must release this fear in ways of calm and peace. Apps are a great source of calm you can have playing on the Internet. A voice next to you is very soothing. If you can't calm your mind yourself, you need someone else to initially do that for you.
There was a time I had them playing day and night. I literally took those voices and sounds in every room I went in and had them playing while I did simple tasks like brushing my teeth, making a cuppa, getting washed and dressed, eating a meal. You need a kick-start to get this calmed mind.
What kind of apps do you mean?
Podcasts and things?
Yes. Also lots of stuff (free) if you search for it.
I’ll have a look, thanks.
My girlfriend listens to lots of podcasts, when she’s cooking, in bed and when she goes for walks and things.
Hi sad to hear about your situation !! I suggest you to talk with the one your trust so much plus please take care of your self and focus on your diet and take shower as well. !!
Thanks, Miu.