yesterday i had my biggest fear confirmed, im pregnant, i say its my biggest fear as i have 2 children and all my anxiety depression and panic attacks started after the birth of my second child nearly 10 years ago and i have struggled ever since. i can not physically, emotionally, mentally, or financially keep this baby it would break me of that i am certain. ive asked for a termination but i have to wait till tuesday when they reopen after the easter hols for an appointment my anxiety is at an all time high at the moment because of this. this is the the first time i have posted anything this personal but i just needed someone to talk to without being judged. my partner is very supportive as is my friend but they are the only ones i have told about this. i cant tell family as we are not close and i dont think they would understand my reasons for the termination so at the moment i am not only tryingt to deal with my panic and anxiety on a daily basis i am now dealing with the pregnancy symptoms too. i am sorry for such a long and rambling post and i honestly dont know what it will achieve i just felt i had to get it out.
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