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Day 4 15-30mg mirtazipine
Today I woke around 8.15 am and felt very sedated/ heavy. Decided to get up anyhow as I'm sure giving in to it and staying in bed would just make me feel worse.
Had a shower and my green tea. Starting to come round a little now. Pulse was quite fast again so took 10mg propananol and have decided I will do this each morning now to help slow the pulse down a little.
Was going to go shopping when felt bit more alert but got the flowers for tommorows funeral coming sometime today so need to wait in for those.
Am feeling anxious about tommorow. It will be the first time I have been to a social (dont know what else to call it) event since becoming ill, so will be a huge test for me in more ways than one!! I need to be there for my daughter though so mustn't let her down. At least it is in the afternoon so I am usually at my best by then.
As far as the increase in meds is concerned, I dont feel so "down" "everything feels horrible" feelings quite as much but I know its early days so hopefully they should disappear soon, if I do have them it is just first thing in the morning.
My new treadmill comes tommorow so from Wednesday I can start using that again...I am sure that will help me.
Thanks for reading.
Jo
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Hi Jo. Ill be thinking of you tomorrow. Just imagine all your NMP friends surrounding you for support. :hugs:
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Hi Lynne, After all that there is no room in the car for me as another one of my daughters friends is going. I had a chat with the other mum as i have felt absolutely awful this afternoon and I think it was the thought of going tommorow. When hubby came home he said he thought it best if I didn't go....I was still going to but then when I found out that I was going to have to drive as well I just got even more stressed out. I didnt really know the girls mum that well either. My daughter said she wanted to be amongst her friends anyhow and said she really was not bothered if I went....so I have decided not to. It is silly putting myself into a situation when I really dont need to. But thanks for your kind words...funny how things work out in the end....Jo
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Hi, New treadmill just arrived horray!!!!! Still will have to wait to go on it tommorow as hubby needs to fix it up when he gets in, too heavy for me to attempt.
Dont feel too good this morning, had a really upset stomach yesterday and this morning feel really sick, just as well that I am not going to the funeral as I couldn't of coped feeling like this, I hope is passes as I am meeting a friend for lunch tommorow and have really looked forward to catching up with her.
Day 5 Slept really well, still feeling sleepy when I wake up and heavy etc, this usually passes after a couple of hours. I supose it is still early days at day 5, but I feel a bit down about it today. I just want to wake up like I used to full of energy and raring to go but it's just not happening at the moment, I wonder if I will ever feel like that again??? Then I should be thankful I am alive and kicking!!!
I find that during the day things can be hard to do and I get so ratty with it all, everything is such an effort. The evenings are the best for me. I have started to regularly take 10mg propananol when I get up with my green tea, to help with the racing pulse, I hope in time this will settle down.
I think because I have always been a "morning" person, (used to get up around 6am) the change is really hard and I hope that when the medication really gets into my system I will feel like that again and be able to get up early etc again.
Am ranting on a bit....sorry....thanks anyone who reads this. JO.
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Hi Jo, you go ahead n rant...its your thread!lol!. Sorry u r feeling sicky. Do you think its a bug?
It is strange how fate plays a hand sometimes, maybe you weren't meant to go to the funeral! Its good that your daughter has her friends with her anyway. I bet it will be really full. Always is with young people. So sad...
Its hard to give you any advice at the moment coz I think you just need time to adjust to your new dose. I am like you, I want everything NOW! Normal routine (treadmill) will resume tomorrow so that will help won't it? I know you feel heavy in the mornings but how does your mood compare to before your changed your dose?
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Hi Lynne, Firstly thanks again for replying, it has been so quiet on here lately, makes you feel a bit lost.
I actually felt alot better this morning by about 10.30 thankfully. I waited until my daughter got picked up for the funeral and then popped out.
I think you are right I do need time to adjust to the new dose, I do feel much better mood wise with it than I did with the lower dose, its just the side effects which get to me, I just need to get on with it.
Its like I went round to see my neices new place and whilst I was round there I just felt a bit odd...like spaced out I surpose and also a bit like the feeling you have when you have low blood sugar (can you relate to that). Even though these meds are surposed to increase appetite I dont think they have done so with me an awful lot, in fact I seem to eat less during the day then I did before. I was thinking about something like lucosade but then dont want to put on weight.
I just really hope that by the time I go back to work (eek a week on Monday now) these feelings have gone.
I am meeting a friend for lunch tommorow that will be a bit of a test, even though I am really looking forward to it and also this Saturday night me and hubby are out for a meal with friends too. I need to do these things though to try and get some normality back into my life again!!!
Yes treadmill tommorow but am going to ensure I dont over-do it on there, as I think I was pushing myself just a bit too much before. Less is more eh?? Jo.xx
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Jo?
Can i ask, did you start on Mirtazapine,,,or did you swap from one drug to another?? I started on Citalopram but was then move on to Mirtazapine,,
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Hi Wayne
I too was on citalopram (had taken it previously on and off for the past 9 years), this last time went up to 40mg but it wasn't as effective for me as it had been in the past so my gp changed me to mirtazipine. I have also taken fluoxetine and doithepin when I first was ever diagnosed with depression/anxiety all those years ago. Jo.
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Yes I can relate to this blood sugar thing Jo. I felt hypo too. Also as if I was in a bubble or under water! Such a weird feeling isn't it? Most people I have spoken to have put on weight, this is one area you have been lucky! I've gained 10 pounds since xmas! I know what you mean about just doing ordinary things like meeting friends can be difficult. One thing I would advise is not to drink alot of alcohol til you get used to higher dose just in case.
Let me know how u feel after you go on the treadmill won't you and have a fab night out.xx
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Yes i have heard about the weight gain with mirtazapine, some bad story's, i will have to work out more often.
How is it going Jo with the meds being upped?
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Hi Wayne,
Yes not too bad, mood feels alot better. I wake up still a bit sleepy but its usually worn off by 10.30ish, had my new treadmill delivered today so will start doing that from tommorow, should help me wake up a bit easier. I just still find everything a bit of an effort during the day, I also find that my heart starts to race if I try to do things too. I have started to take a 10mg propananol each morning now to help with that. I just hope that by the time I return to work these feelings have gone as I feel a bit spaced out during the day too. Can you relate to feeling like that?? Jo.
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Thanks for asking and keeping in touch....helps.
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Day 6 today and turned out to be a good day in the end.
Woke around 8ish, felt bit horrible again, went on treadmill 3/4hr. Was feeling bit anxious cos meeting a friend and she is a work collegue as well. It was lovely in the end we had lovely lunch and catch up. Feeling quite at peace with myself this evening which is nice. Hope it continues. JO
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Jo thats gr8, so glad you enjoyed your meet. It's funny how the build up to something can be scary and then the actual event not. Sometimes the thought of something can really hold us back can't it? You got there and enjoyed it so well done you!
I REALLY hope this nice content feeling continues Jo. :hugs:
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Hi Jo,,,
Spaced out Jo,,,oh yes,,,as i have said before like being thick headed and almost drunk,,,,cant work out if its the mirtazapine does it or the zopiclone, one of them,, or both.
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Day 7 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Started the day feeling dozy as per usual but 3/4hr on treadmill helped. Met a friend for coffee which was nice to catch up, then went in Morrisons...half way round I just felt as if I had been totally zapped of all energy. Was awful, had a small trolley half full, thought about ditching it and running out but needed stuff that was in it and just stuck with it. Didn't feel nice but managed to get rest of bits and then got to the check-out by which time I had worked myself up a bit. Got the right hump with the woman in front of me who was stood reading her newspaper and was in my way!! I started putting my items of the belt and she just glanced at me then carried on!! Some people are sooooooo rude!! Anyhow I managed my way through and back to the car. Drove home and ate something sweet. Keep feeling like it has something to do with low blood sugar?? Feel o.k now.
In summary, I have just realised sometimes I push myself too much!! Have to then take my foot off the pedal a little and chill.
Big learning curve for me! And I now know why it is so important that I dont over-do it when I do go back to work.
Jo.
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Good on you Jo for recognising this. Self awareness is such a valuable tool to getting better and you have it!
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Strange Jo,,,
that happened to me the other night when me and the wife was out,,, i had to but a couple of chocolate bars and a fizzy drink,,,i was shaking too! About 15 mins later i was fine,,,i just put it down to the meds im on,,,
Regards Wayne
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Day 8 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Woke 8ish as per usual...still sleepy/heavy also the usual anxious feeling I tend to always wake with.. 3/4 hr on treadmill....felt little better, shower than off to pick daughter up for orthodenist app (brace had broken). Popped in Iceland then home. Visited sister-in-law in the afternoon. Felt pretty good during the day, this has been the best day I have had since going up to 30mg I so hope it continues. Jo.
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Day 8,!!! You have not wrote anything Jo???? Does this mean it's been a bad day!!! lol.
Come-on Jo,,,im following this with interest!!!!!
Regards Wayne,,,
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Day 8,!!! You have not wrote anything Jo???? Does this mean it's been a bad day!!! lol.
Come-on Jo,,,im following this with interest!!!!!
Regards Wayne,,,
Hi Wayne, Have you found what I wrote now...I posted it by accident and then ammended it....senior moment or should I say mirtazipine moment!!! LOL.......Jo
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Oh yes!!!! It was me having the senior moment, or mirtazapine moment, i do beg your pardon Jo! All is now clariffied!! Thankyou.
Regards Wayne,
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Day 9 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
As per ususal woke 8ish, mother in law visiting today so not going on treadmill today. Groan!! Felt the usual anxious and heavy to begin with but soon disappeared.
Out tonight for an Indian meal with our friends so a little anxious about how I will be. Am really looking forward to it but just have a little nagging bit of anxiety inside. Am so used to my routine of taking my meds at 9pm then being in bed by 10pm etc, but tonight that will just have to change a little so be interesting to see how it effects me.
Have felt good mostly mentally today, but had a few zaps, bit wierd out of the blue!! Had a few visitors and coped really well so pleased about that.
See how tonight goes. Wont be drinking too much alcohol due to meds, but hope it goes o.k.
Jo.
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Wayne, how long have you been on the meds for now?? You may have told me already but have forgotten. Thanks. Jo.
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About 4 months Jo,,,but was changed as first lot did not work that well,,,,but think i maybe getting somewhere now, at last. Still fearing the bad days when they come,,,,How about you?
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Day 9 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
As per ususal woke 8ish, mother in law visiting today so not going on treadmill today. Groan!! Felt the usual anxious and heavy to begin with but soon disappeared.
Out tonight for an Indian meal with our friends so a little anxious about how I will be. Am really looking forward to it but just have a little nagging bit of anxiety inside. Am so used to my routine of taking my meds at 9pm then being in bed by 10pm etc, but tonight that will just have to change a little so be interesting to see how it effects me.
Have felt good mostly mentally today, but had a few zaps, bit wierd out of the blue!! Had a few visitors and coped really well so pleased about that.
See how tonight goes. Wont be drinking too much alcohol due to meds, but hope it goes o.k.
Jo.
Hi Jo,
I have been reading your thread, very interesting. you have been doing really well, well done, I hope you enjoy your eveing out.
My shrink was going to put me on Mirtazipine, I came on here and read a good few threads, I decided not to go on it, and I picked sertraline. my reason is cause of my driving lessons. I talked it over with my gp.
Yvonne
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Hi again Jo,
Wishing you a very Happy Mother's Day tomorrow. Hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow.
Yvonne
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Hi Yvonne,
Thankyou for your kind words. Hope you have a lovely day too. Jo.xx
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About 4 months Jo,,,but was changed as first lot did not work that well,,,,but think i maybe getting somewhere now, at last. Still fearing the bad days when they come,,,,How about you?
Hi Wayne, did you take different meds at first?? I feel that mirtazipine is working for me, my depression has lifted and so had my anxiety but the anxiety has started to creep back in a little at the moment. I think it may be due to the fact that after 4 1/2 months off I have one more week and then I go back to work. I am starting off on 3 hrs a day so shouldnt be too bad and I dont feel scared when I think about it but I think somewhere in my sub-concious it is starting to effect me. I have started to take 2mg diazepam along with my propananol when I feel like this. It feels like a kind of "on edge" feeling about me and my appetite decreases (thats not a bad thing though). I have got to get over this and get myself back into work but this feeling is horrible...so am taking the meds to help me cope.
Jo.
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Day 10 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Enjoyed lovely evening out last night with friends. 1st late night out (well late for me) I have had since been on mirtazipine. Took meds around 11pm (2hrs later than normal), still woke at the same time to a lovely sunny day. Did 3/4 hr on treadmill.
Visited mum-in-law to give mothers day gifts etc, my mum lives a long distance away from me so had flowers deliivered to her.
Feel kind of anxious today, more so than usual. A kind of "edgy" feeling, not nice and can only put it down to that Tuesday I see my manager to discuss my return to work the following Monday. I surpose after the length of time I have been off it is understandable, but I have to conquer this. Work is not responsible for my depression or anxiety and I know I love my job etc it is just the thought of it I think??? Dont really know. Had hoped the mirtazipine would of stopped any anxiety but nothing is a miracle cure some of it has to come from within!! I will get there, I have propananol and diazepam to help me too!!! And encouragement from NMP hopefully too!!!
Anyhow, going to chill out this afternoon, as feeling a bit tired from the night out.
Hope all is well with everyone else on this lovely sunny day. Jo.
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Jo, I know you feel a little anxious today but your general tone is upbeat. Thats great! Good thinking on how you feel about work to, rather than panicking you are trying to make sense of your feelings which shows you are in control, good for you matey, so pleased for you!
Hope you are having a nice day today...xx
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Oh Lynne,
Thanks for that...you have made me feel so much better. Jo.xx
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Day 11 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Well I ended up having an awful night last night. Took meds at 9pm as per usual, watched dancing on ice then went to bed. Read for a while then started to doze. Must of felt to sleep then suddenly woke up feeling all panicky and sick. Dashed to the loo and had awful runs. Just felt dreadful really anxious etc. After I just could not go anymore (pardon the details) I took 2x2mg diazepam and went back to bed. Eventually I dropped off again.
I woke up this morning feeling horrible, anxious and just not right. I got up forced myself to do the treadmill and coped o.k. with it but it was kind of going through the motions if you get what I mean. I have work on my mind and I know it is that. It is ridiculous because I love my job and the people there, I know I am going back on reduced hours to start with and I know I will have support so why am I anxious?? It drives me mad how I feel this way, so silly but I just cannot help it. I have a week before I go back anyhow. Admittidly I am seeing my Manager tommorow and will be going back for the first time into the work place since begginning of November last year. I feel I have to do it before I go back to make it less of a hurdle. I I I what stress we put ourselves under!!! Am trying to distract myself the best I can today!!! Hope the day gets better, its sometimes like you feel you have to do something right now to take away the anxious feeling beforehand, well thats how I get. It's like getting it out of the way. I just hope tommorow helps me and then I can enjoy the rest of my last week off rather than constantly fretting about next Monday...try not to??? Why oh why do I get like this.....Jo.
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Day 12 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
Well here we are day 12 and I think that I am at last starting to feel the benefit of the increase in the medication.
I still wake heavy but it disappears really quickly now. I also feel alot of positive thoughts first thing in the morning whereas before there was still alot of dread in my thoughts.
I am suprised today that as I have my appointment with my manager I expected to have a bad night and feel awful this morning but I had neither, so for me that is encouraging. I kind of feel quite excited at the thought of seeing everyone again.
A huge step for me today....I so hope it all goes o.k. Let you know later.................
Jo
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Back from the meeting and it went really well. Was lovely to see everyone again and I felt absolutely fine!!! So good sign for me. I am actually looking forward to Monday now!! Horray....may it continue. Jo.
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Hello Jo,
I have just read through this whole thread and you can really see that day by day you are getting better.....which I have to say makes me feel more hope so thank you!
Anyhow I hope this continues and that once you get back to work things continue to improve! Well done and keep going!
x
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Thankyou Hallam 11!! Means alot to me your reply. Good luck to you too, I will offer you my support. Jo.xx
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Jo, I am so pleased your meeting went well with work. I bet it has really motivated you hasn't it? Do you feel better now about going back? Lynne xx
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Hi Lynne,
Yes I feel so excited about going back now. I really felt that I would be anxious etc today and just couldn't believe I felt so well, I didn't even need to take a diazepam or anything.
My manageress was so supportive, she agreed to the plan of return hours I had done and said that we would review them every week and if they were too much would reduce accordingly.
It was lovely to see the people I work with too, it just broke the ice, everyone said how well I looked and how much they had missed me, made me feel valued.
I just have to make sure that I dont over-do it and when I do come home I switch off or I will have hubby to contend with.
So when you get back from your holiday I will have plenty to fill you in on.
I just hope this feeling continues and I am able to enjoy these last few days I have before I go back.
Thanks for posting, you have been a great support to me and I love chatting to you.
love Jo.xx
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Day 13 15mg-30mg mirtazipine
What a difference a day makes!!! Just shows you can never count your chickens!!!
Had very restless night last night...poor hubby had a bad stomach and was up and down to the loo. Bless him, still went off to work. Guess he had what I had on Sunday evening.
Due to restless night woke up pretty early and was dozing in and out of sleep, got up around 8ish. Mood bit low today....monthlys due....feel tired due to that and from restless night plus I surpose I bit of back lash from yesterday being such a big day, guess it takes it out of you a bit!!
Still went and did my hour on the treadmill as I know excercise is good.
Visited sister-in-law, but just felt exhausted up there today so came back and going to just potter around today.
Still waking up with the "anxious feeling" but really have to just accept this is how I wake up as before I "crashed" back in October I would often wake feeling like that, its not nice but pretty norm for me, dont surpose it will ever go.
I have bought all the Claire Weekes books, am going to read them and see if I can apply anything that may help get rid of the "morning" feeling.
Hope everyone having good day today. Jo.