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I’m so fragile at the moment that I don’t think I can put myself through this in case they are holding me together. I’m also scared of what I’ll go on - I’ve heard a lot of good things about sertraline or citalopram but I did try an SSRI (fluoxetine) many years ago and this made my anxiety a lot worse.
I suggest switching to imipramine via a cross-taper before trying a SSRI. Imipramine (Tofranil) was the 'gold standard' AD for panic disorder for many decades until the SSRIs and SNRIs became available. It wasn't replaced by SSRIs because they were more effective, but because they are safer in overdose, although it turns out this isn't true of all of them.