Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
Thanks. That's what I'm trying to tell myself. However, I'm also convinced that it could be tumour/s that I've long suspected are in that very location causing it to look bigger as they're taking up room :(
I know it's probably irrational but I can't help but notice these details whenever I'm stressed about bc.
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
Time to face the fact that the doctors were all right Toby, 2 years of bowel cancer and you'd more than likely be dead ......you seem hale and hearty to me.
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
It's incredibly irrational, and you need to stop feeding it and start taking some action.
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
It's like, the left side sticks out more but only when I inflate my stomach
Is that normal?
I know it's been almost 2 years (18 months I think) but it's just such a deep seeded worry at this point
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
And it's one that you continue to feed.
Sorry, Toby, but this one's on you, and spending so much time (literally) navel gazing won't help in the least.
Start thinking about building yourself a future instead.
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
As others said, Toby, if you had cancer you wouldnt be here now. Please believe what the doctors have been telling you, they know what they are talking about, they have medical training :hugs:
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
I know it's dumb but I think sometimes anxiety causes pain in that area which fuels the worry and sends me in an endless loop
I've been thinking a little more objectively over the past day and reassured myself with the fact that this difference in the size between the two sides is only noticeable when I push all air into my stomach and force it to look that way... when it's flat it looks fine
Thanks guys. Iris, Scass, Whisper
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
Well, now I'm back to worrying about this
I feel disgusting writing this because it's been a while since I've been on this thread so TMI
but I went to toilet and it was a little mucus-y and there was like a glob of very dark brown mucus maybe mixed with some stool or something?
It was so dark that it almost looked black but it wasn't black I don't think
So I'm scared that it was blood
The rest of the stool when I wiped was a normal colour. I saw this at the end of the movement
I think I had BBQ sauce a few days ago with chips? Could that be the reason? I had it earlier too but it wouldn't have had enough time to pass through
I know this is disgusting. Like I say, when I was in the thick of this worry I was very desensitized to gross talk about bowels and now it feels strange again to be typing this
Re: Have I got rectal cancer?
I'm panicking that it may have been dried blood or something?
Like why was it so dark :(