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Congratulations, Karen! Please stop to recognize your courage in all of this, and your inner strength, admire the person it turns out you have always been. You've come through the worst of it, very pleased for you!
Me, I had the advantage of a detox centre, so, I couldn't get out and into trouble, but I learned in there that my brain would continue to try to keep the addiction going, and alcohol was one substitute it would try to convince me I should have. Refuse to listen to it. The beast has been knocked out, but mustn't be revived. Don't mind the odd night with short sleep, it'll come back. Your good eating sounds yummy and fulfilling ... It seems the doc was right, it was your addiction to the benzo that had kept your anxiety going. All the best to your doctor and you for proceeding here on out! xx
Marie
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Thanks Marie. I know I was deffo totally addicted and panic would come on if I ran low on Lorazepam or Diazepam. So I never felt able to quit before.
DAY 17
I feel so much better today after a full nights sleep. Took some sleep aid with Valerian root in it but was so exhausted I think I would have slept any how. Have mild anxiety, kind of below the surface type but my mood is normal and I could have laid in bed today as I do not feel totally agitated. I am a bit nervous as I have my first appointment with a benzo wd specialist at 10am. I think all in all I am doing ok though and pray I do not have post acute withdrawal syndrome . I found a chart yesterday saying normal benzo wd usually lasts about a month. Pleeeeeeease dear God!!!
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Hang in there Karen! xx
Keep us posted ... :D
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Good luck with the appointment, Karen
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I'm having a really good day :)
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Only just seen this thread.
Karen you are doing amazing. I've read ex heroin addicts say that benzo withdrawal is harder than heroin withdrawal so be proud of yourself, you're doing amazingly well.
When I withdrew from trazodone I couldn't sleep and the doctor prescribed me an anti histamine called phenergan/promethazine, it zonked me. I'm sure your sleeping pattern will return the more time passes but when you're worn out through lack of sleep it's hard.
Best wishes to you xx
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I am full of admiration for you !! I have been on diazepam for approx 15 years & am terrified about trying to come off them. I take 4mg per day however once in a while ie once a month or longer i have a bad day & may take 10mg. I have tried cutting down to 31/2 per day & felt so bad I decided to stay on the 4mg. Well done & don't look back now. :yesyes:
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Thank you x
DAY 18
Had a fantastic day yesterday and went shopping for the first time and for a pub meal. However, I couldn't sleep at all and got very panic stricken. I seem to have one good day, one bad day depending on whether I have managed to sleep or not.
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You are still doing fantastically well. Just consider what you are doing-withdrawing from a highly addictive drug which you have been freely prescribed by irresponsible GPs. Keep going however you feel-you're many days benzo-free now so you're winning that horrible battle!
You should feel really proud of yourself!
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Just seen my GP today as he wants to try & get me off diazepam which I have been taking for many years. I am 60 & terrified of the withdrawal symptoms as suffer from anxiety. I would rather just stay on the 4mg for life !!:scared15: