Annual Mammogram, Extreme Anxiety
So, it’s my annual mammogram coming up next Monday. This will mark my 9th year since being diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 35. To say I’m not finding it any easier is an understatement. The strange thing is when I did have cancer I coped really well and know I could do it again, it’s just the thought of it coming back is crippling.
I’m trying to look for some ways of seeing this annual testing as a positive thing. I keep thinking I don’t want to go for the mammogram but that would just be silly and cause me more anxiety in the long run.
I don’t want to spend the next week worrying as it won’t make any difference to the outcome!
Re: Annual Mammogram, Extreme Anxiety
Hi Deb,
I could tell you not to worry about it, forget about it until next Monday and just get it over and done with when the day comes. But I guess if we could all think logically like that then half of us wouldn't be on this forum
But look, you had a mammogram a year ago and presumably you got the all clear then. A doctor once told me that mammos can pick up changes about 12 months before a lump is even felt. So they pick things up very very early.
So even if the worst did happen on Monday (and I'm not suggesting for a minute that it will), you know it will be something that was caught very early. So it's definitely best to get it done.
Because you had breast cancer before then it's obvious your anxiety is going to be high at the moment. Be kind to yourself and I would say to allow yourself some little bit of anxiety rather than try to completely get rid of it. Try to distract yourself as best you can between now and then. If you have to, pick a worry time period each day and try to postpone your worry until that time. I do this sometimes and if I'm able to do it it's a brilliant technique.
I really hope everything goes well for you on Monday, and there's no reason it won't. Keeping everything crossed for you :hugs:
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BrokenGirl
Hi Deb,
I could tell you not to worry about it, forget about it until next Monday and just get it over and done with when the day comes. But I guess if we could all think logically like that then half of us wouldn't be on this forum
But look, you had a mammogram a year ago and presumably you got the all clear then. A doctor once told me that mammos can pick up changes about 12 months before a lump is even felt. So they pick things up very very early.
So even if the worst did happen on Monday (and I'm not suggesting for a minute that it will), you know it will be something that was caught very early. So it's definitely best to get it done.
Because you had breast cancer before then it's obvious your anxiety is going to be high at the moment. Be kind to yourself and I would say to allow yourself some little bit of anxiety rather than try to completely get rid of it. Try to distract yourself as best you can between now and then. If you have to, pick a worry time period each day and try to postpone your worry until that time. I do this sometimes and if I'm able to do it it's a brilliant technique.
I really hope everything goes well for you on Monday, and there's no reason it won't. Keeping everything crossed for you :hugs:
Thank you so much for the reply. I know you’re right. That’s a great idea about having a worry time, hopefully it will help stop the thoughts ruining my day.
As you say, worse case scenario any cancer would be picked up early.
Thanks again.
Re: Annual Mammogram, Extreme Anxiety
Deb said it all and very well. Just know that we are here hoping and/or praying for your happy all clear post when the results come in.
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Crh371
Deb said it all and very well. Just know that we are here hoping and/or praying for your happy all clear post when the results come in.
Thank you x
Re: Annual Mammogram, Extreme Anxiety
So I had my mammogram today and everything was ok according to the radiologist. However, I can’t be happy! I was looking at the scans after the mammograms were done and started freaking out over some white spots I saw. The radiographer assured me that this was normal calcium deposits and very common. Nothing to worry about.
The radiologist then compared my scans to last year and said everything is fine. Why can’t I just accept what they’ve said?!!! Part of me thinks they are wrong and I feel sick thinking of this calcium and what if it develops into cancer!!
I’m driving myself mad, I’m not medically trained, so what do I know about white spots on mammograms!! I’ve wound myself up for weeks over this scan and now it’s done I should be happy.
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Maybe time to treat the HA?
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nomorepanic
Maybe time to treat the HA?
Definitely but I don’t know what’s left to do that I haven’t already tried. Currently on sertraline, been through CBT and various counsellors.
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Start by not looking at the scans yourself? Let the experts do it? Those white dots are microcalcifications which I have along with many others. The comparison between this year's and last year's scans is the important thing and you've received very good and reassuring news.
Why can't you believe what you are being told? Because you believe your HA mind chatter more than the assessment of the medical professionals looking at your scans.
It's such a shame when you should be celebrating good news. Why are you doing this to yourself?
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pulisa
Start by not looking at the scans yourself? Let the experts do it? Those white dots are microcalcifications which I have along with many others. The comparison between this year's and last year's scans is the important thing and you've received very good and reassuring news.
Why can't you believe what you are being told? Because you believe your HA mind chatter more than the assessment of the medical professionals looking at your scans.
It's such a shame when you should be celebrating good news. Why are you doing this to yourself?
Exactly! Why am I looking at scans that take years of training to read and interpret.
You’re completely right, I’m letting my HA mind take over.